arrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i’m so stress rite now!!!
got so many things to luahkan..
i wish i have some1 that i can share what i feel lately…
friendship~school stuff~ everything pun ade msalah…
i juz dun get it why people too hard to consider other’s feeling..
sometimes things easily turn up side down & its out of our control..
we oso dun want things to be like that maa, but it ady happen, cant u juz accept it & be quite?
lately, i realized that i had caused trouble to people..i’m sorry for that, maybe i’m not so capable to handle the leadership although i’m juz the assistant…
i cant promise that i can be a perfect ass. leader, but i’ll do my best…
then this morning, i suddenly became hot to someone, he tot i’m hot coz i was hurt wif his jokes about the “best friend” thing…i’m not so childish la to trasa wif that kind of jokes..what do u think i am?
i just hate the atmosphere, i cannot bear to hear the conversation, i hate it…it really hurt me…
we owez hang out together & i bet people might thing that there’s something between us..the fact is we’re just best buddy..
but for me best buddy shud have the chemistry rite…i’m afraid that we dun have it..or we lacked of it..
true most of the time we can hang out quite well, but it just only when ur mood is not distorted..
when u’re not in a good mood, i feel like i spent time wif a stranger…
i really dunno what shud i do? what shud i say? end up i just keep in silence & keep thinking that did my action hurt his feeling?
it then turn out to be “i never heard the silence quite this loud”…
i hate the atmosphere…seriously….it really scary..
i’m sorry for u to having a unreliable friend like me, a friend that dunno how to cheer u up when u’re in a bad mood…
i realized that whenever i think of something that i believe might cheer u up, instead it turn to be another way round..
i guess my effort was wasted..haha
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