WeLcoMe To mY wOrLd

15 october 2009....
seems like some of my friends are not in their mood now...
its just happen so sudden...
dunno whether they are mad with me or what??
i hope it doesnt have anything to do with me...
BUT if sy ade terlepas cakap n korang terasa dgn sy...
sorry ler byk2...

2day, actually kmi rmai2 dah plan mo p bergambar pakai yukata...
but end up its only me n ct je yg bergambar...
amin plak TERjadi kameraman tanpa upah hehe...
adehhh td ade baa bju yukata ntuk laki..tp c amin xnak pkai..
hahaha sal die ckp xsmart...

hmm akhirnya termakbul gak laa hajat ct mo brgambar pkai yukata...
hehe sy pun happy gak la coz dpt experience pkai yukata...
aisey brabis gak la tahan nafas tadi...macam pakai bekung ni...
sal agak ketat gak la kene ikat..
posing td pun just buat yg biase2 je...tak bleh la buat pose ganas...
xpasal2 tercabut plak reben yukata tu hik3...
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adehh tajuk posting exam mood...tp crite sal yukata ek eleh...
hahaha maafkan la keterlanjuran sy akekeke...

erm ekceli nothing to say...
sy just pelik je dgn some of my friends...
suddenly bad mood...
n sy rasa maybe bcoz of exam mood...

yelah, 3 hari je lgi nak monthly test..
then final plak 2 minggu je lgi...
adehhh sebut je sal final trus otak jammed ni...
manelah tak ramai yg stress kan...

hrp2 mood dorang akan kembali okay dlm beberapa hari ni...
sy pun x brani nak kacau dorang...
maybe they want some time for thmselves...
so up to u...

p/s: to all my friends...ganbatte for this coming test n final...mudah2han kt dpt jwb dgn baik...study smart n dun stress2...

once again i want to say sorry if sy ada terkasar bahasa n buat korang marah...PEACE

hmm next post baru ler sy crite sal transformasi from 1st year ---> 2nd year

Yippie...this weekend i'm going home...
lama dah sy x balik rumah ni...
slalunya if weekend, 1B la destinasi tmpat sy menghabiskan masa...
1B tu kire mcm rumah ke2 sy plak haha...


hmm nape sy tiba2 mo balik rumah?
saje je...suddenly miss home maa...
lgpun x lama lgi nak final kan...
nnti mane ade masa nak balik daa...
sy bukan mcm dorang chalen n ed yg boleh balik tiap2 mnggu haha...


tu pun sik bek nada tone mak sy ceria je bile sy ckp sy nak balik...
biasenye mesti my mom ckp : "hah nak balik lgi??" aduyaiii bnyi mcm sy slalu balik je...i wonder napela kepulangan sy ni x brape mndapat smbutan from family hik3...smpai hati dorang oo T.T


aisey camne nak start citer aa...
tak reti laa nak kaitkan tajuk dgn citer ni...
yg atas tu just mukadimah jee akeke...
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Now, i'm oredi 20 years old n x lama lgi nak 21...
huhu cepatkan masa berlalu...sedar x sedar umur pun dah meningkat dewasa ni...
i wonder do my behavior n pemikiran seiring dgn umur sy?


huhu amin owez said i'm like kanak2 ribena ni...
hahaha yg confirm sy bukan la kiut mcm kanak2 ribena tu..
but sometimes i'm act like kanak2...not matured...
hehe mesti korang stress dgn sy ni kan...


tp from pemikiran sy, i think i change a lot...
meh buat comparison starting from sek menengah...
hehe sal klau nak compare me from sek rendah tak logik le plak kan...
jauh beza~ tuuuu....dri segi kekiutan pun dah jauh beza hak3...of coz now sy lebih kiut maa...


sek menengah...


what i remember, sy mmg agak "nerd" la time tu...
mmg rajin giler study...plus with my images yg match with "hary potter spectacle" haha mmg laaa nerrdddd...
lucu baa if sy pkai spekmata yg lama...sal bingkai die bulat nii...
kwn2 sy plak sik bek ade aa sempoi2 skit...mcm yg sy describe dlm posting b4 this...
tp kmi still dikategorikan as group skema..haha sal x brani mo break the rulesss...
kmi la antra students yg sangat mematuhi peraturan sek ^^


skema2 jga...tp part "cuci mata" tu mmg dah start develop time sek menengah lgi...
hahaha klau nak tau, sy pernah minat kat sorang ckgu kimia ni...cgu F from kelantan hik3...
ckgu tu dah kawin n ade anak dah pun...tp sy peduli ape...haha aisey korang jgn la pikir yg bukan2 plak..
sy just minat gitu2 je..suke aa tgk cigu tu...kiut ~.~


klau time kelas kimia, sy laa antara paling semangat ni...
org len plak sume mengantuk time kelas kimia...
sebab nada tone cigu F ni mmg bleh buat ringtone tido laa...
aisey bukan mengata...tp btol maa...
wlpun nada cigu ni mendatar je...tp best ape die ajar kimia...
that's why i love kimia ni...fizik plak antara subjek yg sy x suke...byk sgt formula...
lgpun cigu yg aja is cigu pompuan akeke...


*sometimes, kt perlukan "something" ntuk induce kt ntuk menyukai sesuatu subjek tu hihi*
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Matrik life ^^


this is my 1st time xperience living far from my family...
at first mmg rase:


1. takut
- huhu byk sgt dgr crite org kene buli ni, then mcm mane laa rupe rumet sy nnti...bleh ke dorang trime sy nnti...
- takut gak sal sy ni pyh giler mo bangun pagi...huhu nnti sepa la yg mo kejutkan sy...
- masalah air pun one of the main problem d kml...


2. seram
- adeh, bile sy skodeng2 forum kml ni, most of dorang pnya crite mention sal alam2 mistik ni...tp hakikatnya mmg byk aa crite..paling femes crite sal tgh2 mlm bilik kene ketuk oleh sorang pompuan yg tgh cari anak die...gurrllppp serammmm...then ade aa lgi crite sal org nmpak hantu ju-on...actually kejadian tu terjadi berdepan dgn blik kmi je...kirenye yg nmpak tu org aras bilik kmi jgla...dorang gelar hantu ju on sal bende tu merangkak dr hjg koridor mnuju ke arah dorang....arggghhh meremang bulu roma sy bile tringat sal crite tu...ekceli byk lgi crite2 seram d kml ni...aisey mls la mo crite semua...x masuk dgn tajuk posting baa...len kali klau rjin sy crite laa aa haha


3. excited
- dlm takut2 tu excited jga baa mo msuk kml ni...sal org slalu ckp kire bertuah la if terpilih masuk matrik...hehe so sy pun x terkecuali la ade sikit rase bangga bile dpt jejak kaki p matrik...


4. sedey
- hehe normal la kan...lgpun x pernah maa tngal jauh dri family, so bile berjauhan tu mmg aa sedih...haha klau korang nak tau, hmpir tiap2 mlm sy nngis sal tingatkan family...bukan la every night for the whole year...during orientasi jee...lgpun mmg stress aa sal jadual orientasi tu packed giler...dah le kene bangun dlm jam 4 am cam tu...mmg penyeksaan mental,emosi n fizikal laa time tu...mane laa sy x nangis tringatkan family...smpaikan pernah sy rasa mcm mo balik jee...hik3 lawak2...tu maksudnya i'm still x mature...baru kene seksa skit dah tak dpt tahan hehe...


tu laahh ape yg sy rasa b4 n awal kemasukan sy d matrik ni...
tp hakikatnya byk jga la yg sy learn...i learn to be more stronger...more independent...(haha dah bole cuci baju tnpa pertolongan mak lagi)


besides, my relationship with my parents oso bcome more akrab after sy masuk matrik ni...
hmm maybe btol laa org ckp, people only show their love when people that their love is far away from them...time sy d matrik barulah sy dpt rasa my parents really do love me n concern bout me hehe =)


hmm time matrik ni antra subjek faveret sy are math n kimia ^^
n bio antra subjek yg sy x brape msuk otak...x penah pun bio dpt A..slalunya A- jaa hoho...


why i like math n kimia?
hehe simple...one of the reason dsebabkan lecturer jgala..


Sir umar is the one yg ajar math...chalen pun kenal sir ni..
sy suke gler sir umar ni...erm rupe mmg bleh than laa kiut hik3..
plg suke dgn sir ni coz prangai sir ni mmg sempoi giler...x garang pun...
n wlpun die dh kawin n ade anak...tp prangai die x pon mcm org yg ade bini akeke...
cool la pendek kata...
pernah skali tu, result test math kmi stu kelas teruk giler...rmai yg failed including me...
n nak tau ape hukuman yg dikenekan?


aisey sesi bergambar baa..
yg lawaknya sir suh kmi sume senyum n buat peace ni...
hahaha yg kmi plak pun bantai jee laa ikut pe yg sir ckp...
buat2 gaya mcm bangga giler dgn result yg "best" tu haha...
hmm pernah hri tu kmi p mnta gmbar tu dgn sir...adehh tp sir ckp die dah delet ni...
huhu kejam jga tu...org mau jga maa tgk...


besides, me n one of my bestfriend Zahida (she's now studying medic in egypt) mmg rajin aa p jmpa sir ni d MP (menara pentadbiran)...
kmi 2 snggup redah hujan n panas p MP yg jrak die mmg leh tahan jauh aa gak dri bilik tutorial n kuliah...
hehe matlamat kmi just one...mo jmpa sir umar...hehehe adeh niat kmi murni baa mo blaja...
kmi jmpa pun bukannya p mngurat sir tu...p tnya soalan baa...
(korang jgn la buat andaian bukan2 haha...trust me...)


pernah skali tu kmi d perli oleh madam...
ekceli madam tu ajar kmi math ntuk sem 2...sem 1 sir umar yg ajar..
tp kmi ni still suke p cari sir umar if kmi ade soalan yg x phm..
so kmi assume madam ni jeles aa kot dgn sir umar sal byk sgt peminat hahaha...
yelah, bgus2 madam tu yg ajar kmi math, tp kmi still prefer sir umar...hik3 manala madam tu tak terasa hati...
ape yg madam tu perli?
hehe die ckp la kat kmi 2..korang 2 ni madam tgk slalu jee cari sir umar...ade ape2 ke? sir umar tu dah kawin....


haha kin panas jga ayat madam tu...aisey bleh2 kmi kene cop mau mngurat sir...ish3 tak patut btol laa...
madam~ plezz trust us, kmi cari sir sebab mo tnya soalan je tp smbil2 tu mmg layan gak laa borak dgn sir hihi...


that's the story bout sir umar...


hehe now let me introduce to u all bout sir mark..
sir mark ni ajar kmi kuliah kimia...
nickname sir mark ni bleh gak digelar as "sir korea"
haha sal sir tu kiut mcm plakon korea...
sir tu mmg low profile laa...kdg2 kmi ni smpai tersalah anggap yg sir ni student..
mana taknya, sometimes sir ni nmpak nerd baa hehe...
style rmbut sir mmg wajib rmbut belah tengah plus gel lgi...

sir mark ni ade trademark tersendiri...
if adam dgn Oh yeye whatsuppx2
farah with Breepx2...
sir mark plak...CAN or NOT

haha sir ni klau habis je menerang satu2 part tu...
confirm ayat tu akan kuar dri mlut die ni..
dlm sejam lecture ntah brape byk kali sir ulang ayat tu...
ekceli sir tu mmg particular laa...die klau bleh mau kmi semua faham dgn ape yg diajar...
sal tu la die tnya can or not...
kmi ni plak, awal2 je rajin jwb...lama2 mls laa mo respond...
tp if kmi x respond, sir pun mulela gelabah n buat muke seposen ni...
hahaha sir2...kmi fhm baa ape yg sir ajar..
cume sometimes timing x kene baa...if lecture time tgh2 hari mmg most of us hanyut dibuai mmpi...
hehe so sir tidak bersalah d dlm hal ni...
u oredi did a good job in teaching us =)
hopefully sir still mngajar d kml..

hehe tulah serba sdkit sal 2 org sir kesayangan sy tu hik3...
sebab sir2 ni lah, sy brjya score well in both math n kimia...
i know, sir 2 org ni just jlnkan tugas mngajar sja maa...
its all depend with ourselve whether we want to success or want to fail..

hmm habis crite sal lecturer ksyngan, meh kt bralih p crite yg len plak...
but still ade kene mngene dgn kml baa...

pelan2 laa korang baca aa...
sy klau start tulis somthing, mmg pnjg berjela...
well that's my style...
coz i'm not soo good in talking...
my friends owez ask me bout my life n my kenangan2 d sek...
n i owez answer them..hehe teda papa yg menarik baa...
actually i really want to crita...but i just dunno how to start...
lgpun sy takut my friend will not interested in my story...

with this blog, i can share a bit bout my life with my friends..
hehe sorry laa aa sal kdg2 sy ni byk merapu jee...
bcoz i just write ape yg terlintas d fikiran sy...
sebab tu lah kdg2 jln2 crite ade tunggang terbalik..
hehe jgn marah aa ^^

lets continue...
hmm mase d matrik ni, penah gak sy down...
tp bukan la sebab conflict...tp sebab result...
result UPS (ujian pertengahan semester) mmg teruk giler...
tp alhamdulilah final bleh lepas dgn jayanya...
rasenye b4 result final sem 1 kuar, sy ade aa kol my mom n ckp huhu mcm x confident la bleh lepas..
sal i'm not doing so well during the exam...
but my mom just say tawakal je...if result x ok for this time...next time makesure buat yg lebih baik...
huhu suprisingly, sy passed dgn cemerlangnye...hehe tp takde la smpai dpt 4 flat...sipi2 je laa..

bile sy inform my mom with the result..hehe punye happy my mom...then barula my mom reveal sal abah sy...
rupenye after sy kol my mom n mngadu (b4 dpt result), abah sy tiap2 mlm buat solat hajat n doakan kejayaan sy...so i'm quite tersentuh laa bile my mom bg tau sal tu...huhu time tu sy btol2 rasa terharu dgn pengorbanan yg my parents did to me...
huhu terima kasih maa n abah...jasa korang takkan sy lupe smpai bile2..
start hari tu, smgat sy ntuk blaja mmg increase drastically...btol2 dah bertekad mo buat yg lebih baik ntuk final sem 2 nnti...

during final sem 2...
for paper bio n kimia mmg lancar gler aa jwb...confidence gak la i'll get good result for both subjects...
tp, bile tiba paper math...huhuhu really down ooo...ekceli b4 jwb math, sy mmg dah prepare brabis laa...smua past year sy jwb..n mmg smngat la mo jwb...skalinye bile bace soalan yg dterima...mmg kin sakit hati laa...mana taknya, format soalan x sama langsung mcm past2 year pnya qs...
soalan ntuk batch kmi byk yg mnta prove sesuatu equation tu...huhuhu manela tak geram, sal time lec, lecturer skit pun x emphasize bout that...kire mcm ajar pkai sebelah mate je...sal x importance konon...
adehhh skalinya bnda yg x importance tu lah yg byk kene tnya dlm exam...

secara jujurnya mmg byk soalan yg sy skip...huhu dlm hati, adehh result A n B tu mmg jauh laa meninggalkan sy...C klau dpt pun kire ok oo...mcm mana if sy fail??wuuuuuu rase stress gler ni...sal kt dah berusaha sehabis baik tp syngya still x dpt buat yg terbaik...

habis je paper math, me n my friends trus p cafe...haha stress2 jga, tp perut still kene isi k..
smbil beratur tu, kmi smua borak sal soalan math yg sott tu...
n most of my friends oso cant answer well...so dlm hati sy ade aa skit lega sal bukan sy sorang je yg x dpt jwb akekeke...

oh ye mse balik bilik tu, me n julia (my rumet) tb2 buang tebiat p paking2 baju ni...
hahaha ekceli bukan la buang tebiat just mo hilangkan stress je maa...mmg mls giler nak buka buku n study for tomorow paper...kmi ckp ape nak jdi pun jdi la...kmi pduli ape!! paper math td mmg dah konpem2 fail ni...so x gune jga mo study for next paper...
adehhh ni la ni...salah satu pemikiran sempit sorang student haha...

but end up...
kbykan kmi lulus baa ntuk math tu...
wlpun sy x dpt A...tp syukur le sgt2 sal bleh dpt A-
huhu mmg miracle la bleh dpt A-...
so confirm laa graf penilaian for math direndahkan...

hehe ape yg sy prasan kan...if sy rasa i will fail for certain2 subject, end up the result totally bertentangan dgn ape yg sy rasa...then if sy rasa mcm dah buat yg terbaik, tp end up result yg dpt xde laa sebaik yg dharapkan...huhu nape ek??adakah ini satu kebetulan or what??i oso cant answer it...huhu

makin dipikir makin sakit kpala...
baik lupekan jee...
haha smbung story...

kali ni nak crite sal lembu plak...
mesti korang curious kan nape sy bleh minat kat lembu ni...
hehehe ekceli it started when sy tersalah beli cadar...

mase nak masuk matrik ni, of coz la sgala persiapan mau yg baru2 kan...
so x terkecuali cadar pun mau yg baru2 maa...
sy ingat lgi...sy beli cadar tu d Giant haha...
skali terpandang cadar tu sy dah tertarik giler ni..
sy tertarik dgn kaler hijau...(hehe dulu sy mmg suke kaler hijau...tp skang dah berubah p pink n purple hoho)
then ade gambo lembu...comey gak laa...
so sy pun decide la beli cadar tu...

jengx3.....
bile smpai je rumah...
smgat giler la sy mo test2 tgk cadar tu...
skalinya......
huhuhuhu geraammmm tooollll sy oooo....
nak tau nape?
sbab gmbo katun lembu tu pakai bikini...
hak3 adehh mcm manela sy bleh tak prasan ni???
tu lahh sape suh nda tgk btol2 b4 beli...
mak sy pun pakat gelakkan sy ni...
die siap pksa sy bawak jga cadar tu...
yelah, dah beli, x kan x nak pkai plak...membazir namanya tu...

so nak tak nak sy pun gune je la cadar tu time d kml...
aisey jatuh laa maruah sy if sy gune cadar kartun2 ni...
tak rock laa...
klau gmbar lmbu je takpe la...ni siap pkai bikini lgi...
ntah ape la rumet sy akan fikir sal sy nnti haha...

nak djadikan crita, rumet sy julia ni ade aa bg tau sy ttg 1st time dia nmpak cadar sy tu...
time tu me n the other 2 rumets x dblik...kmi smua ada kelas...c julia ni plak baru je daftar...
so mase die smpai bilik tu mmg x org la...
n guess what she saw when she 1st time menjejakkan kaki ke dlm bilik 3.11?
hehehe of coz la my cadar yg striking giler tu...
lgpun katil sy mmg mghadap pntu..

julia ckp, bile die nmpak je cadar tu, die start la pikir ntah mcm mana la rupe tuan kpda cadar tu...
then bile die tau, sy lah tuan pnya cadar tu...die ckp laa haha mmg ngam dgn karakter tuan pnya cadar...
aisey apekaa???? rupe sy ni mcm lembu ke??hahaha ape2 je laa...

yg penting start hari tu, my rumet slalu gak la kaitkan sy dgn lembu2 ni...
so bile lama2 kene induce sal lembu2...keminatan trhdp haiwan yg digelar lembu tu pun terdevelop la dlm diri sy...but seriusly, kiut jga lembu ni kan???hehehe

then bila d ums (hehe sory tb2 tertukar setting)
chalen n alynn pun slalu gak kaitkan sy dgn lmbu...
sal sy pkai cadar lembu maa...kali ni bukan cadar yg bikini tu...
hehe sy beli cadar lembu baru...kali ni bersopan pnya version okay hahaha...

chalen ade hadiahkan sy patung lembu yg agak la sexy tu during our new year exchange gift...
hahaha comey aa lmbu tu...first time sy dpt hadiah patung lembu...
mase bufday plak, chalen tmbah lgi koleksi lembu sy dgn mghadiahkan sy frame lembu n keychain lembu...
siap bufday kad pun lembu jga ni...aisey sik bek la kek tiada perisa lembu ni..klau x confirm dorang beli ntuk sy tu hahaha...

sy pun crite la kat kazen sy "kak teh" sal hadiah2 jenama lembu yg sy dpt tu...
die pun pakat gelak laa..then die jnji kat sy nak belikan sy daging lembu...
hahaha sy ingatkan die bergurau je...so tiap kali kol die sy slalu laa ingatkan die sal daging lembu tu...
die ckp "yelah2 kang klau farah balik raye taun ni kok teh belikan..."

sy ekceli takde la mgharapkan sgt..
hehe skalinya bile balik raye hri tu...
tok sy n makcik sy brabis ckp ke sy "haa farah, mkn la kari daging tu...daging lembu tu disponsor oleh kok teh..." aisey bior betul kok teh ni...betul2 die tunaikan jnji die ni...hahaha thanks bebeh...
yg lawaknya hmpir satu rumah tu tau daging lembu tu dibeli khas kok teh ntuk sy...
aisey terharu sy oo...
n now sy plak yg ade jnji dgn kok teh...
die plak tagih nak patung lembu dri sy...
haha dun worry...next time bile balik kg i'll tunaikan my janji =)

haa tgk laa betapa kuatnya pengaruh lembu dgn sy ni...
skang ni pun koleksi patung lembu sy dah memenuhi ruangan katil....
smpai kan mo tido pun x ruang haha...
to tell the truth it is my first time sy kumpul patung sebanyak tu...
asiey thanks la kat pihak2 yg ade turut sama mnyumbang for my collections hehe ^.^

hoho crite sal lembu pun pnjg lebar ooo...
tp still ade kaitan dgn tajuk baa...if dulu sy x suke lembu..now sy suke lembu...means that there is transformasi dlm diri sy akeke...

lgi satu...if dulu mase zaman2 skema sek mngah, sy tak minat pun kat jepun2 ni...
but bile d kml, sy telah terpengaruh dgn c aisyah ni...die la yg induce sy tgk drama2 jepun ni...
1st drama yg sy tgk was hanazakari no kimi tachi e....aisey pas je tgk drama tu, trus sy minat giler dkt japan's stuff...means sgala drama, movie,songs n artist jepun sy minat...
group jepun sy paling sy suke is NEWS...
so bleh dikatakan skop keminatan sy terhadap dunia hiburan telah tersebar luas ke negara2 asia yg len....
klau dulu sy kan minat adam~ jee...skit2 adam...
but now, kbykan artist yg sy minat asal dri jepun n taiwan...haha kawaaii baa dorang...

hmm rasanya tu je lah yg sy nak crite buat masa ni...
ekceli nak sambung transformasi sy d ums from 1st year --> 2nd year...
but better sy post dulu entry ni...
nnti klau tb2 terjadi lgi connection error...sia2 je lah sy menaip dari td...

fuyooo pnjang giler kan my post....
as i said b4 this....suke hati i ler nak tulis pnjg mane...
sy tak paksa pun korang bace blog sy hik3...
ekceli tujuan sy tulis blog ni just sbgai diari for myself...
i mean bile boring, bleh gak sy p bace2 balik ape yg telah terjadi dlm hidup sy kan...
slagi ingatan masih kuat, better la sy coretkan ape2 yg patut ke dlm blog ni sbgai ingatan d msa hadapn (n.n)

p/s: next i'll continue bout transformasi d ums plak hehe peace (-_-)

hmm if yesterday die menyakitkan...
2day he menyenangkan...
sometimes i just cant understand him...
kejap ok kejap x...

actually this morning, after finished posted my previous post,
sudah bertekad ni nda mo lyn dia...
i just dun care what will happen...

but td, after hbis lec, we will having practical..
suddenly he kick my chair from behind...
n asking me mo p mkn ke x...
huhu dgn nada yg garang ni...
sy time tu yg still not in da mood
just give him renungan yg bleh thn kin panas laa..
coz deep in my heart i still terasa with his ayat smlm...

then die just acting like nothing happen...
huhu smlm dlm kol dia pnya ayat btol2 menusuk kalbu ni..
but at that moment, he starting to make jokes bout me bcoz i'm too down due to this conflict...confius sy...
baa camna jga kan...secara jujur, mmg sy agak stress n down la dsebabkan konflik ni...
dtambah lgi kena marah dlm kol...makin bertambah la sy punya tekanan...

time mkn n practical pun sy x brape layan sgt die...
tp he still dun give up approach me...
oh ya masa tnggu pntu lab buka td, ada jga la
dia tnya napa still sedih2...but sy just buat muka seposen ni...
haha geram ni dia...rasa mcm mo blasah2 ja sy td...(dia yg ckp cam tu)

then ada la kmi sentuh balik sal hal tu...
die pun ckp la laki n pompuan punya interpretation mmg berlainan...
man need explanation...while sometimes girls ni susah sgt more explain something kan...
coz girl hrp man will understand them...but the truth is man really fail to understand girl's feeling...
if girl didnt say it out loud, man definitely will not understand apa pun n will do their own interpretation...
that's why la conflict bleh terjadi...

well not fair kan...dtambah lgi man ni tnggi sgt ego...
susah mo mengaku kalah...

tp td finally dia yg mengaku kalah dulu haha...
balik2 die ckp sepatutnya dia yg merajuk bukannya sy...
but the truth is, die dulu yg get angry with me...
just like i mention b4, i oredi text him n apologize n pujuk..
tp dia x respond..

me, if org dah x respond, i'll just say...baa biarlah...
dah org x sudi mo maafkan...mo wat camne lgi kan..
lgpun i remember die pernah ckp, if die xrespond msj
maksudnya die xmo dikacau...
so i just let him cool down first...

so, 2 hari tu sy lgsung x msj dia ni...
but then he complain to sifu why i didt text him..
why leh?? simple answer, coz i'm afraid he will not respond to my msj...

huhu bila difikirkan balik apa yg dia ckp dgn sy smlm mmg rasa cam mo nangis oo..
dia ada bg tau dorang chalen yg dia mo seksa sy ckup2...mo buat smpai sy menangis..
well, he finally berjaya fulfill his wish...
thanks to him coz lama sudah sy x mengalirkan air mata ni...

ermm now, at this moment, i'm oredi okay...
tp td sy still ada kasi kin panas dia ni...
sik bek die still dpt bersabar dgn sy....

sal tu la sy ckp, susah mo ramal dia ni...
sometimes hard to differentiate adakah die ni just bergurau or really meant it...
man really complicated laa...not as simple as been said (mcm dlm movie the ugly truth tu)
erm tp girls oso apa kurangnya...
so senang ckp 2-2 pun complicated...
ada masa someone tu bleh jadi really easy going...
n sometimes they will be soooo sensitive...
that's normal la kan...

wlau pa pun berlaku, life must go on...

so hopefully, after this no more conflict will occur...
i just want to concentrate with my study...
Ganbatte!!!!

p/s: thanks for accepting my apologize n once again sorry coz sy ni slalu jak bikin panas ^^

He called me yesterday...
what a "nice" conversation...
the truth is, i cry after the conversation..
it is my first time i cry becoz been scold by a person name man...
besides my father, i didnt experience been scold by man..
n now i oredi experience it..
well it's really hurt...

i just dun understand..
what is the purpose he called me?
if he want to make me more tertekan..
yeaahh he did it very well..
if he cant accept my apologize k fine..

i'm now really2 tired to understand other's feeling...
chalen's is right, sometimes people very selfish,
they want us to understand them, they want us to not hurt their feeling..
but did they do the same thing to us?
maybe its true, only we ourselves will understand more about ourselves..

now, i dun care what will happen..
i just want to focus on my study..
hopefully me n my friends will do better in this coming test
n more important is the final exam..

p/s: thanks to my dear rumets...korang owez b myside to comfort me..one thing i want to say...if after this i seem like moody, its not korang punya salah k...lebih2 lgi sifu...i know u trying to cheer me up..but if u feel that i still with the moody mood...please dun be angry with me...n please jgn sebab emhong sifu pun moody sama...i dun want to see that k...if not, i'll be more tertekan...now i just want a time for myself..i'll be better soon..trust me =)

sbgai mukadimah or pembuka kata....dgn lafaz bismillah....
arrrrhggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh knapa la connection smlm trouble??
kin panas tol!!!!! sia2 ja sy stay up dri kul 1 am until bout kul 3.30 update blog...
skali bila tiba masa mo publish....error occured....huh dlm hati still cool lgi sal confident ingat mesti ada tersave d draft maa....skalinya TEDA ni....eeeeeeeeeeeeeee shit!!!


haha itulah pembuka kata ntuk hari ni ye...skali skale maa intro with sdikit makian akeke...
mmg hot baa sy pagi td...yalah, byngkan brapa byk perenggan suda sy tulis...confirm klau tulis balik x sama mcm yg ori...tp i'll try to ingat balik point2 penting yg tlh sy masukkan...


well, this is my real intro....
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Genap sebulan since my last post...
its oredi 5th october now...soooo many things happen within this 1 month....
ada suka...ada gila2....ada sakat menyakat...n paling penting skang ada org sakit hati....


actually sy mls mo update blog ni...sal byk sgt things happen n i'm quite stress with study right now...
tp memandangkan my dear rumets nak sgt tau crite sal hal tu, so sy pun penuhi la impian mereka ni haha...


b4 sy masuk part klimaks...mesti ada part intro2 crita maa...*wlpun tak penting, tp sy mo c crita jga...suke hati sy laa...blog sy maa hoho*


so meh sy begin with the 1st day sy balik dri cuti that's mean on 27th sept 2009....
hri tu is one of the tiring day ever...mana x nya, trpksa stay omost 6 hours d klia ooo....
sebab transit dr kuantan mo balik kk...flight kk kul 5pm...n kmi smpai dri klia kul 11am...
mmg lenguh giler laa bdn duk d klia tu...tp sik bek la ade bwa laptop...so keje me n farhan spjg masa tu on9 laa...akeke connection pun bgus smpai sy smpat lgi men pet society ^^


if xlaptop...confirm mati kebosanan sy d sana oo...c fahmi plak meragam je time tu...
balik2 die sebut sal ultraman2...slagi tak dibeli, slagi tu lah die memekak nak ultraman dkt mak sy...
act bknnya my dad x mo belikan, tp c fhmi tu bukan pndai jga brg pun...x smpai satu hari confirm rosak...so my dad ckp la kat die, tnggu d kk nnti baru beli..sal kat ctu pnya mahal...adik sy tu kejap je die dgr arahan..xlama pastu balik lgi dgn die punya rengekan tu...haaiiizz mmg kin panas laa...oh yaa yg pling kin panas bila kmi terlupa teddy bear yg sy belikan ntuk c fahmi tu...bleh2 tertinggal d kg ni...ish3 susah2 ja sy beli oo...


habis crita sal klia...d kkia plak nothing interesting happen...cuma nk g tau yg sy trsrmpak dgn DR WENDY...haha terkejut sy oo...Dr pkai mcm org dtg melancong ni..sexy o_o.....hehe malu sy mo tegur oo sal sedar diri maa...siapala sy kan...haha len la klau sy femes mcm pei jie or kaymint ka...mo jga sy p tgur dr wendy tu...


d bilik plak...
smpai2 je sy nmpak sifu n chalen d katil....
dri gaya sifu, confirm la ni anak not in da mood ntuk mnyambut kepulangan sy...homesick lgi la tu...
cuma chalen je yg tegur sy...tp tekpa...emhong sudah biasa haha...


after kemas bju n mandi, sy smpat lgi on9 men fb n siapkan my pbl...
lewat gak la sy tido hri tu...sik bek esokkan pgi still bleh tersedar p kelas...
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isnin n slasa teda apa2 yg best berlaku....yg penting, kelas start cam biasa -_-


rabu plak...


hmm ekceli hri tu sy neves gila ooo...smua gara2 pbl....brabis sy baca n try mo pahamkan my topic, tp still x paham2 jga...dlm hati sy, confirm la sy kena teruk dgn dr HMP singh nnti...
bila tgk ct byk kena tnya, sy mmg dh start x senang duduk suda...adehh matilaaaa sy pasni.....


after smpai my turn, sy pun bacala my presentation...aisey dpt komen dr Dr yg die klau bleh x mo ayat pnjg2...if can, explain using ur own word...hehe aisey ekceli pbl sblom ni sy buat rngkas2 je, tp bila Dr tu pnya pbl, sy sngaja la cari detail2 sal takut kena tnya kn...skalinya len plak yg Dr maukan..huhu paiisehhh jga la time tu...tp Dr tu xde la marah2...die just tegur je...


n yg paling penting sy x sbr mo pbl rabu ni...hahaha sal sy x pyah cari n present any info...keje sy just summarize apa yg brlaku for last pbl...akekeke i'm a chairperson ok...at first agak stress laa sal tb2 Dr tu mo sy continue jdi chairperson...sy ingatkan setiap kali pbl tukar chairperson maa...rupanya cara Dr tu len...hehe tp best gak laa..bleh melatih my soft skill maa ^^ nurul ganbattte!!! u can do it!!!


erm slain stress sal pbl, sal bi pun kin panas gak...susah2 sy stay up buat assignment sal HOW TO WASH CAR...last2 kelas cancel plak..dah la last minute inform ni...time tu sy n ct dah mo otw p kelas suda...


hehe when kelas is cancel....so fhm2 la aktiviti kmi sterusnya kan....


masa me n ct otw balik hostel, terserempak la dgn sorang mamat ni...tgk dri gaya mmg confirm die mo outing ni...then x psal2 sy pun kene ajak skali...end up on that evening, me, sifu n amin habiskan masa kmi d 1B...keje kmi cam biasa la tgk wayang (wajib) , momom n teman anak tan sri ni shoping...


hri tu kmi tgk wyg tsunami...hahaha mmg len dri yg dsngka...crita tu mmg best laa...cuma die punya effect of tsunami nda la brapa real n menakutkan...sik bek la part lawak n part touching dpt mencoverkan crita ni...so overall movie tsunami ni not bad la...smpaikan ade org meleleh air mata time tgk crita ni...i admit the story quite touching la sal ade mnyentuh sal family n perasaan....but sik bek sy still dpt menahan diri dri melelehkan air mata...mahal ba sy punya air mata..mana bleh suka2 hati je mo kasi keluar ^^...
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balik je dri outing, konon la azam mo study...skalinya, tgn sy ni laju je p capai plug n switch on the laptop...bile dah on laptop tu tau la ba kan pa yg sy buat....hoho onlineeeee ler....xkan study plak kan...ish ish ish bila la sy ni mo insap ni....tak lama lgi monthly test ooo...then finaaallllll!!!!!


k lupakan sal exam jap, klau fikir lgi tmbah stress sy...


meh kt sambung story ye...


khamis.......
nonthing spesel happen....as usual, menjalani kehidupan sbgai student medik yg agak la x gaya student medik pun..sal enjoy saja keja sy ni hoho


jumaat......
once again c amin escape class csl...
adeyy ntah brape kali dah die escape csl ni...sabar saja oo...
kali ni alasan die lewat bangun...
die kol sy pun time sy suda d library n otw balik hostel...
die kol sbb mo ajak lunch sama..
so sy pun angkut la nasi kerabu yg sy beli d library tu n bwa p cafe...


kmi mkn kejap je, tp berborak yg lama....
as usual sy slesa mdgr dri bercerita...
amin ada kasi crita sal camne die settlekan masalah sorang pompuan yg mngamuk d fb
sal nmpak gmbar amin dgn gf die...lol this girl oredi fall in luv with amin...
tu lah c amin kasanova btol (ayat ct ni) ntah brape byk girls yg suda die kasi jampi ni...
at first pompuan tu marah gler dkt amin smpaikan die maki amin d fb...tp alhamdulilah skang pompuan tu dah cool down n dorang skang berkawn cam biasa...


then amin ade gak mention yg die n ed plan mo p rumah terbuka kwn c ed petang jumaat tu...
die ade gak ajak sy skali, tp sy tolak sal hri tu btol2 letih...lgipun sy dah berazam this weekend mo stay d bilik buat nota...no outing2...


balik je dri mkn, sy continue on9...xlama pastu chalen n sifu pun balik dri kelas jepun...
suddenly tgh rancak2 berbual smbil men fb, sy trnampak notification bufday dyana on 3rd Oct...
so sy tnyala sifu, eh esok bufday dyana ek?? erm x plan mo outing smbut ke??


saat tu lah muncul idea outing ni...sifu ok je...then bile tnya dyana rupanya die ade aktiviti d sek on that day...petang baru habis...then sy ckp dkt sifu, outing lewat pun tekpa maa yg ptg outing...lgipun dah lama kmi x outing 3 org...last outing pun ntah bulan brape ntah..lamaaaaa sudaa...
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3rd October (can i say it as a bad day ever)....


dlm tgh hari kul 11 cam tu, amin ada msj sy n tnya whether sy mo outing x hari ni...sy jwb la x...at first sy mo terus terang dgn die n c tau die sal plan me n sifu...tp memandangkan die x respon my msj, sy pun diamkan je lah hal tu....


sy ingatkan die dah give up la ajak sy outing...hehe sal byk kali dah sy ckp sy mls outing this weekend...
tp x lama pastu, dlm jam 2 die text me again n asking me to teman he watch movie..die ckp kejap je...dri msj die bnyi mcm die btol2 terdesak mo outing...i mean die nmpak mcm tgh stress n need to cheer up...klau x xkan la die tb2 anta msj cam tu kan...


so sy decide la mo ajak die outing sama dgn kmi nnti...tp b4 that i need to ask sifu's opinion...sy takut nnti sifu terasa dgn perbuatan sy if sy x tnya dia dlu....bile sy p intai sifu d katil, rupanya sifu dah tido...huhu sy tol2 dlm dilemma time tu...amin or sifu?? if sy reject bulat2 pelawaan c amin, camne nnti klau kmi terserempak d 1B?? tak ke naye jadinya...confirm perang dunia ke 2 tercetus...n i really afraid to fikir bout the akibat....so nak tak nak, sy just terus terang je la dkt amin psal plan kmi...


n rupa2nya akibatnya sama je negative...
amin really mad at me....i thing bcoz of my ayat yg ade mention sal kmi klau bleh mo outing tnpa ade kehadiran laki...n amin assume yg slama ni kmi anggap die sbgai penyibuk...tidak terlintas sikit pun dlm fikiran sy ttg hal tu...napa tb2 die ckp cam tu...
sblom ni pun die ade gak outing dgn rkn2 laki die....tp sy ok je...


yg paling terkilan bila die mention ayat "we end it today"....what do he mean by that??mo break ka??huhu takkan la sebab hal tu die mo putuskan persahabatan kmi...sy rasa mcm tak berbaloi...mcm murah btol erti persahabatan ni bg die...senang2 je mo lafazkan ayat tu...its hurt k..


2x sy send msj apologize to him....but did he reply my msj??the answer is NO...
smpai saat sy menaip entry ni, he still with his silent mode....maybe die rasa bahagia kot buat org mcm ni...
if sy btol2 telah buat kesalahan besar smpai tak bleh dimaafkan, just say it out loud...at least sy tau apa salah sy...if die marah sebab sy telah mengabaikan perasaan die or telah buat die tersinggung dgn kata2 sy, i oredi say sorry...sorry for everything....sy sedar yg sy ni tak sempurna...byk kelemahan sy....these few months sy telah byk kali buat people around me terasa with my perbuatan...what can i say here is just sorry...really2 sorry...sorry coz telah abaikan perasaan korang sorry coz cannot be a good friend to u all...sometimes i feel really tired mo jaga perasaan org....i try so hard not to hurt other's feeling...but end up there still someone that will get hurt bcoz of me....

sometimes sy rasa sy ni selfish...but people is like that...i oso need time for my self....i do have my own problem...but dunno why its hard for me to share it with my friends even with my closest friends...kdg2 sy envy with them yg bleh speak out loud bout their problem...why i cant do that??people see me like i have no problem in my mind...but the truth is, i have lots of problem....


huhu sorry la terlebih emosi le plak...
sebab dlm blog je sy brani luahkan ape yg sy rasa...
i really feel down bcoz of the conflict...
i really hope that he will accept my apologize...did he forget bout what he has said to me?
*skali kawan selamanya kawan* i hope he didnt forget bout that...


if die rasa keadaan mcm ni selesa bgi die...k fine...
sy sedar siapa sy...tanpa sy pun die bleh menjalani kehidupan dgn happynya kan...
lgipun die kan ade byk kwn2 pompuan yg len....
so stakat kehilangan sorang kwn mcm sy ni tak membawa apa2 erti pun pada dia...

but for me, its definitely satu kehilangan yg besar if i really losing a friend like him...
thanks for all the sweet memory that u have created..