WeLcoMe To mY wOrLd

sbgai mukadimah or pembuka kata....dgn lafaz bismillah....
arrrrhggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh knapa la connection smlm trouble??
kin panas tol!!!!! sia2 ja sy stay up dri kul 1 am until bout kul 3.30 update blog...
skali bila tiba masa mo publish....error occured....huh dlm hati still cool lgi sal confident ingat mesti ada tersave d draft maa....skalinya TEDA ni....eeeeeeeeeeeeeee shit!!!


haha itulah pembuka kata ntuk hari ni ye...skali skale maa intro with sdikit makian akeke...
mmg hot baa sy pagi td...yalah, byngkan brapa byk perenggan suda sy tulis...confirm klau tulis balik x sama mcm yg ori...tp i'll try to ingat balik point2 penting yg tlh sy masukkan...


well, this is my real intro....
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Genap sebulan since my last post...
its oredi 5th october now...soooo many things happen within this 1 month....
ada suka...ada gila2....ada sakat menyakat...n paling penting skang ada org sakit hati....


actually sy mls mo update blog ni...sal byk sgt things happen n i'm quite stress with study right now...
tp memandangkan my dear rumets nak sgt tau crite sal hal tu, so sy pun penuhi la impian mereka ni haha...


b4 sy masuk part klimaks...mesti ada part intro2 crita maa...*wlpun tak penting, tp sy mo c crita jga...suke hati sy laa...blog sy maa hoho*


so meh sy begin with the 1st day sy balik dri cuti that's mean on 27th sept 2009....
hri tu is one of the tiring day ever...mana x nya, trpksa stay omost 6 hours d klia ooo....
sebab transit dr kuantan mo balik kk...flight kk kul 5pm...n kmi smpai dri klia kul 11am...
mmg lenguh giler laa bdn duk d klia tu...tp sik bek la ade bwa laptop...so keje me n farhan spjg masa tu on9 laa...akeke connection pun bgus smpai sy smpat lgi men pet society ^^


if xlaptop...confirm mati kebosanan sy d sana oo...c fahmi plak meragam je time tu...
balik2 die sebut sal ultraman2...slagi tak dibeli, slagi tu lah die memekak nak ultraman dkt mak sy...
act bknnya my dad x mo belikan, tp c fhmi tu bukan pndai jga brg pun...x smpai satu hari confirm rosak...so my dad ckp la kat die, tnggu d kk nnti baru beli..sal kat ctu pnya mahal...adik sy tu kejap je die dgr arahan..xlama pastu balik lgi dgn die punya rengekan tu...haaiiizz mmg kin panas laa...oh yaa yg pling kin panas bila kmi terlupa teddy bear yg sy belikan ntuk c fahmi tu...bleh2 tertinggal d kg ni...ish3 susah2 ja sy beli oo...


habis crita sal klia...d kkia plak nothing interesting happen...cuma nk g tau yg sy trsrmpak dgn DR WENDY...haha terkejut sy oo...Dr pkai mcm org dtg melancong ni..sexy o_o.....hehe malu sy mo tegur oo sal sedar diri maa...siapala sy kan...haha len la klau sy femes mcm pei jie or kaymint ka...mo jga sy p tgur dr wendy tu...


d bilik plak...
smpai2 je sy nmpak sifu n chalen d katil....
dri gaya sifu, confirm la ni anak not in da mood ntuk mnyambut kepulangan sy...homesick lgi la tu...
cuma chalen je yg tegur sy...tp tekpa...emhong sudah biasa haha...


after kemas bju n mandi, sy smpat lgi on9 men fb n siapkan my pbl...
lewat gak la sy tido hri tu...sik bek esokkan pgi still bleh tersedar p kelas...
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isnin n slasa teda apa2 yg best berlaku....yg penting, kelas start cam biasa -_-


rabu plak...


hmm ekceli hri tu sy neves gila ooo...smua gara2 pbl....brabis sy baca n try mo pahamkan my topic, tp still x paham2 jga...dlm hati sy, confirm la sy kena teruk dgn dr HMP singh nnti...
bila tgk ct byk kena tnya, sy mmg dh start x senang duduk suda...adehh matilaaaa sy pasni.....


after smpai my turn, sy pun bacala my presentation...aisey dpt komen dr Dr yg die klau bleh x mo ayat pnjg2...if can, explain using ur own word...hehe aisey ekceli pbl sblom ni sy buat rngkas2 je, tp bila Dr tu pnya pbl, sy sngaja la cari detail2 sal takut kena tnya kn...skalinya len plak yg Dr maukan..huhu paiisehhh jga la time tu...tp Dr tu xde la marah2...die just tegur je...


n yg paling penting sy x sbr mo pbl rabu ni...hahaha sal sy x pyah cari n present any info...keje sy just summarize apa yg brlaku for last pbl...akekeke i'm a chairperson ok...at first agak stress laa sal tb2 Dr tu mo sy continue jdi chairperson...sy ingatkan setiap kali pbl tukar chairperson maa...rupanya cara Dr tu len...hehe tp best gak laa..bleh melatih my soft skill maa ^^ nurul ganbattte!!! u can do it!!!


erm slain stress sal pbl, sal bi pun kin panas gak...susah2 sy stay up buat assignment sal HOW TO WASH CAR...last2 kelas cancel plak..dah la last minute inform ni...time tu sy n ct dah mo otw p kelas suda...


hehe when kelas is cancel....so fhm2 la aktiviti kmi sterusnya kan....


masa me n ct otw balik hostel, terserempak la dgn sorang mamat ni...tgk dri gaya mmg confirm die mo outing ni...then x psal2 sy pun kene ajak skali...end up on that evening, me, sifu n amin habiskan masa kmi d 1B...keje kmi cam biasa la tgk wayang (wajib) , momom n teman anak tan sri ni shoping...


hri tu kmi tgk wyg tsunami...hahaha mmg len dri yg dsngka...crita tu mmg best laa...cuma die punya effect of tsunami nda la brapa real n menakutkan...sik bek la part lawak n part touching dpt mencoverkan crita ni...so overall movie tsunami ni not bad la...smpaikan ade org meleleh air mata time tgk crita ni...i admit the story quite touching la sal ade mnyentuh sal family n perasaan....but sik bek sy still dpt menahan diri dri melelehkan air mata...mahal ba sy punya air mata..mana bleh suka2 hati je mo kasi keluar ^^...
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balik je dri outing, konon la azam mo study...skalinya, tgn sy ni laju je p capai plug n switch on the laptop...bile dah on laptop tu tau la ba kan pa yg sy buat....hoho onlineeeee ler....xkan study plak kan...ish ish ish bila la sy ni mo insap ni....tak lama lgi monthly test ooo...then finaaallllll!!!!!


k lupakan sal exam jap, klau fikir lgi tmbah stress sy...


meh kt sambung story ye...


khamis.......
nonthing spesel happen....as usual, menjalani kehidupan sbgai student medik yg agak la x gaya student medik pun..sal enjoy saja keja sy ni hoho


jumaat......
once again c amin escape class csl...
adeyy ntah brape kali dah die escape csl ni...sabar saja oo...
kali ni alasan die lewat bangun...
die kol sy pun time sy suda d library n otw balik hostel...
die kol sbb mo ajak lunch sama..
so sy pun angkut la nasi kerabu yg sy beli d library tu n bwa p cafe...


kmi mkn kejap je, tp berborak yg lama....
as usual sy slesa mdgr dri bercerita...
amin ada kasi crita sal camne die settlekan masalah sorang pompuan yg mngamuk d fb
sal nmpak gmbar amin dgn gf die...lol this girl oredi fall in luv with amin...
tu lah c amin kasanova btol (ayat ct ni) ntah brape byk girls yg suda die kasi jampi ni...
at first pompuan tu marah gler dkt amin smpaikan die maki amin d fb...tp alhamdulilah skang pompuan tu dah cool down n dorang skang berkawn cam biasa...


then amin ade gak mention yg die n ed plan mo p rumah terbuka kwn c ed petang jumaat tu...
die ade gak ajak sy skali, tp sy tolak sal hri tu btol2 letih...lgipun sy dah berazam this weekend mo stay d bilik buat nota...no outing2...


balik je dri mkn, sy continue on9...xlama pastu chalen n sifu pun balik dri kelas jepun...
suddenly tgh rancak2 berbual smbil men fb, sy trnampak notification bufday dyana on 3rd Oct...
so sy tnyala sifu, eh esok bufday dyana ek?? erm x plan mo outing smbut ke??


saat tu lah muncul idea outing ni...sifu ok je...then bile tnya dyana rupanya die ade aktiviti d sek on that day...petang baru habis...then sy ckp dkt sifu, outing lewat pun tekpa maa yg ptg outing...lgipun dah lama kmi x outing 3 org...last outing pun ntah bulan brape ntah..lamaaaaa sudaa...
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3rd October (can i say it as a bad day ever)....


dlm tgh hari kul 11 cam tu, amin ada msj sy n tnya whether sy mo outing x hari ni...sy jwb la x...at first sy mo terus terang dgn die n c tau die sal plan me n sifu...tp memandangkan die x respon my msj, sy pun diamkan je lah hal tu....


sy ingatkan die dah give up la ajak sy outing...hehe sal byk kali dah sy ckp sy mls outing this weekend...
tp x lama pastu, dlm jam 2 die text me again n asking me to teman he watch movie..die ckp kejap je...dri msj die bnyi mcm die btol2 terdesak mo outing...i mean die nmpak mcm tgh stress n need to cheer up...klau x xkan la die tb2 anta msj cam tu kan...


so sy decide la mo ajak die outing sama dgn kmi nnti...tp b4 that i need to ask sifu's opinion...sy takut nnti sifu terasa dgn perbuatan sy if sy x tnya dia dlu....bile sy p intai sifu d katil, rupanya sifu dah tido...huhu sy tol2 dlm dilemma time tu...amin or sifu?? if sy reject bulat2 pelawaan c amin, camne nnti klau kmi terserempak d 1B?? tak ke naye jadinya...confirm perang dunia ke 2 tercetus...n i really afraid to fikir bout the akibat....so nak tak nak, sy just terus terang je la dkt amin psal plan kmi...


n rupa2nya akibatnya sama je negative...
amin really mad at me....i thing bcoz of my ayat yg ade mention sal kmi klau bleh mo outing tnpa ade kehadiran laki...n amin assume yg slama ni kmi anggap die sbgai penyibuk...tidak terlintas sikit pun dlm fikiran sy ttg hal tu...napa tb2 die ckp cam tu...
sblom ni pun die ade gak outing dgn rkn2 laki die....tp sy ok je...


yg paling terkilan bila die mention ayat "we end it today"....what do he mean by that??mo break ka??huhu takkan la sebab hal tu die mo putuskan persahabatan kmi...sy rasa mcm tak berbaloi...mcm murah btol erti persahabatan ni bg die...senang2 je mo lafazkan ayat tu...its hurt k..


2x sy send msj apologize to him....but did he reply my msj??the answer is NO...
smpai saat sy menaip entry ni, he still with his silent mode....maybe die rasa bahagia kot buat org mcm ni...
if sy btol2 telah buat kesalahan besar smpai tak bleh dimaafkan, just say it out loud...at least sy tau apa salah sy...if die marah sebab sy telah mengabaikan perasaan die or telah buat die tersinggung dgn kata2 sy, i oredi say sorry...sorry for everything....sy sedar yg sy ni tak sempurna...byk kelemahan sy....these few months sy telah byk kali buat people around me terasa with my perbuatan...what can i say here is just sorry...really2 sorry...sorry coz telah abaikan perasaan korang sorry coz cannot be a good friend to u all...sometimes i feel really tired mo jaga perasaan org....i try so hard not to hurt other's feeling...but end up there still someone that will get hurt bcoz of me....

sometimes sy rasa sy ni selfish...but people is like that...i oso need time for my self....i do have my own problem...but dunno why its hard for me to share it with my friends even with my closest friends...kdg2 sy envy with them yg bleh speak out loud bout their problem...why i cant do that??people see me like i have no problem in my mind...but the truth is, i have lots of problem....


huhu sorry la terlebih emosi le plak...
sebab dlm blog je sy brani luahkan ape yg sy rasa...
i really feel down bcoz of the conflict...
i really hope that he will accept my apologize...did he forget bout what he has said to me?
*skali kawan selamanya kawan* i hope he didnt forget bout that...


if die rasa keadaan mcm ni selesa bgi die...k fine...
sy sedar siapa sy...tanpa sy pun die bleh menjalani kehidupan dgn happynya kan...
lgipun die kan ade byk kwn2 pompuan yg len....
so stakat kehilangan sorang kwn mcm sy ni tak membawa apa2 erti pun pada dia...

but for me, its definitely satu kehilangan yg besar if i really losing a friend like him...
thanks for all the sweet memory that u have created..