WeLcoMe To mY wOrLd

hmm if yesterday die menyakitkan...
2day he menyenangkan...
sometimes i just cant understand him...
kejap ok kejap x...

actually this morning, after finished posted my previous post,
sudah bertekad ni nda mo lyn dia...
i just dun care what will happen...

but td, after hbis lec, we will having practical..
suddenly he kick my chair from behind...
n asking me mo p mkn ke x...
huhu dgn nada yg garang ni...
sy time tu yg still not in da mood
just give him renungan yg bleh thn kin panas laa..
coz deep in my heart i still terasa with his ayat smlm...

then die just acting like nothing happen...
huhu smlm dlm kol dia pnya ayat btol2 menusuk kalbu ni..
but at that moment, he starting to make jokes bout me bcoz i'm too down due to this conflict...confius sy...
baa camna jga kan...secara jujur, mmg sy agak stress n down la dsebabkan konflik ni...
dtambah lgi kena marah dlm kol...makin bertambah la sy punya tekanan...

time mkn n practical pun sy x brape layan sgt die...
tp he still dun give up approach me...
oh ya masa tnggu pntu lab buka td, ada jga la
dia tnya napa still sedih2...but sy just buat muka seposen ni...
haha geram ni dia...rasa mcm mo blasah2 ja sy td...(dia yg ckp cam tu)

then ada la kmi sentuh balik sal hal tu...
die pun ckp la laki n pompuan punya interpretation mmg berlainan...
man need explanation...while sometimes girls ni susah sgt more explain something kan...
coz girl hrp man will understand them...but the truth is man really fail to understand girl's feeling...
if girl didnt say it out loud, man definitely will not understand apa pun n will do their own interpretation...
that's why la conflict bleh terjadi...

well not fair kan...dtambah lgi man ni tnggi sgt ego...
susah mo mengaku kalah...

tp td finally dia yg mengaku kalah dulu haha...
balik2 die ckp sepatutnya dia yg merajuk bukannya sy...
but the truth is, die dulu yg get angry with me...
just like i mention b4, i oredi text him n apologize n pujuk..
tp dia x respond..

me, if org dah x respond, i'll just say...baa biarlah...
dah org x sudi mo maafkan...mo wat camne lgi kan..
lgpun i remember die pernah ckp, if die xrespond msj
maksudnya die xmo dikacau...
so i just let him cool down first...

so, 2 hari tu sy lgsung x msj dia ni...
but then he complain to sifu why i didt text him..
why leh?? simple answer, coz i'm afraid he will not respond to my msj...

huhu bila difikirkan balik apa yg dia ckp dgn sy smlm mmg rasa cam mo nangis oo..
dia ada bg tau dorang chalen yg dia mo seksa sy ckup2...mo buat smpai sy menangis..
well, he finally berjaya fulfill his wish...
thanks to him coz lama sudah sy x mengalirkan air mata ni...

ermm now, at this moment, i'm oredi okay...
tp td sy still ada kasi kin panas dia ni...
sik bek die still dpt bersabar dgn sy....

sal tu la sy ckp, susah mo ramal dia ni...
sometimes hard to differentiate adakah die ni just bergurau or really meant it...
man really complicated laa...not as simple as been said (mcm dlm movie the ugly truth tu)
erm tp girls oso apa kurangnya...
so senang ckp 2-2 pun complicated...
ada masa someone tu bleh jadi really easy going...
n sometimes they will be soooo sensitive...
that's normal la kan...

wlau pa pun berlaku, life must go on...

so hopefully, after this no more conflict will occur...
i just want to concentrate with my study...
Ganbatte!!!!

p/s: thanks for accepting my apologize n once again sorry coz sy ni slalu jak bikin panas ^^