WeLcoMe To mY wOrLd

22 december 2009.....


Pada tnggal tu, genap ler 9 hari kmi memulakan semester baru...tngal less than 8 hri jer lgi nak masuk tahun 2010...btw, ntuk umat islam plak, hri ni dah msuk 4 muharram...


blum pun 2009 melabuhkan tirainya, mcm2 gak la yg trjadi antara sy n kwn2 sy...i guess 2009 pnya feng shui mcm x brape ade “om”...haha sebab spnjg taun 2009 ni byk sgt konflik brlaku...sy ingatkan after start sem bru, x de la dah sgala konflik2 ni...rupenye still ade gak...


b4 sy critakan ape yg trjdi ntuk 2-3 hari ni, better sy critakan skit ape yg trjadi pda mggu lepas (14/12/09-20/12/09)


jika sblom ni sy mention sy really excited nak balik ums n x sabar nak start klass, lain plak critanya after btol2 dah start klass...eventhough sy dah berazam nak tmpukan btol2 ntuk module kali ni, tp bila kmi di”welcome” oleh prof P....semangat berkobar-kobar ntuk study tu lama2 jdi luntur...dunno why....i really cant catch up ape yg prof cuba smpaikan...awal2 tu ok ler, bile prof start melencong p topic len, focus sy pun start hilang....plus, assignment yg prof bgi tu....so damn susah...mmg ler best bile everytime prof bgi kmi tips soalan yg akn kuar exam...tp...agak2 ler tahap kesusahan soalan tu....haiyaaa mcm soalan SSM je...huhu smpai skang sy still blom try jwb soalan prof tu...just buat slp jer...i bet mntly test kali ni mesti disaster 0.0 (aisey nmpaknya mcm dah give up dri awal ni....huhu NURUL!!!! Be strong...)


besides hal study....bab2 makan pun antara dugaan yg trpksa kmi sume tempuh sepnjg 2 mggu ni....wuuuu napela cafe cd tu boleh tutup???? If dulu, elok je pun cafe bukak...just cafe sekolah je tutup...but now 2-2 cafe pun tutup....haizzz btol2 mnguji kesabaran ni....boleh jatuh bangkrap mcm ni if everyday kene p 1B mkn...dah ler JPA blom msuk lgi (haaaa ni lgi antara msalah yg melanda...JPA2 biler laaa die nak msuk ni....)


x silap sy, 1st day start kelas tu, kmi omost p 1B mkn...however, surprisingly cafe sktm buka ler plak....end up just dorang amin je lepas 1B...yg kmi2 ni plak just mkn d cafe je...yg kin panasnya cafe just prepare 2 menu je...nasi goreng ayam n nasi goreng kampong...adeh, sabar je la tgk rupe nasi goreng tu...if x krana kmi sume starving, krim slm la kmi mo mkn tu menu...hehe bukanler x brsyukur...brsyukur, tp at least mask ler btol2...hazab btol rupe nsi tu...haizz...


ekceli bukan cafe sktm je buka..cafe sst pun buka gak..siap ade prepare lauk-pauk lgi...hehe syukur Alhamdulillah...after fed up mkn d sktm....kmi pun bralih la p cafe sst melantak...somemore since cuti awal muharam hri tu, cafe sktm tak buka2 smpai skang....aisey, msti sebab x rmai yg mkn sana...yer la, kbykan classmate kmi sume ade kenderaan...just tngal kmi yg brapa kerat ni je yg still brjalan kaki ...so confirm la dorang akan mkn d 1B or kdai2 d alam mesra/kingfisher...


slain tu....ketiadaan wireless turut menguji kesabaran kmi...nasib ler sy x brape sgt nak beron9 sal time cuti hri tu dah puas 24/7 beron9 heehee....tp sedey gak ler sal dah hmpir 2 mggu x dpt men pet society...aisey ntah aper la rupe yuya sy tu...ntah2 tngal tulang jer hak3...ckp psal 0n9 ni, tingat plak sy kenangan sy n ct brjln kaki p galen smata-mata mo on9...if bukan krana nak cari info sal presentation tu, jgn hrp ler kmi nak p galen...time tu hri jumaat...ekceli sy ajak ct p kul 12.30 coz sy assume after hbis on9 kmi leh direct p men futsal...idea futsal tu dtgnya dri dorang ema time kmi brjemaah d surau smpena awal muharam hri tu...hehe last2 sy n ct tak jdi join dorang men futsal...adoiii penatt ooo pas balik dri galen tu...


kmi tukar plan from 12.30 p jam 9 pagi....hehe cdgan ct tu...sy ok jer la...adeyyy skalinya pagi tu, time ct dtg bilik....sy still lgi tido x sedar2...hak3 malunyaaaa ~.~ ......last2 trpksa ler ct lepak2 jap smntara tnggu sy p mndi n bersiap...hehe hontoni gomenasai...end up kmi brtolak dri bilik dlm kul 9.30 cam tu...smpai galen omost kul 10...at first mcm takde org...tak lama pastu rmai plak mnusia mncul dgn tujuan yg sama...tp dorang sume on9 d DR whereas sy n ct plak on9 d galen...awal2 tu lju gak ler connection...lama2 bile rmai yg guna, line jdi slow...after hbis je cri info n berfacebuk kmi pun decide balik...oh ye d fb tu smpat lgi chat dgn Rodtney hehe...rodtney ler yg 1st approach tnya sal tiket wyg...haha dia ingat sy ni pekeja gsc ka???mane r sy tau hri ape yg ade student price...ampeh tol!! Then kmi brubah p topic gosip2 hak3...mcm biase lar..sy kan suke usik rodtney dgn sifu...somemore hri tu sy slh sngka n ingatkan rodtney hantar sifu smpai ranau...rupe2nye just hntar smpai terminal taxi je...hehehe peace no war...tp seriously, i really think yg u guys ade chemistry la hehe seswaaaiii =)


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habis sal sume tu, meh masuk part feeling2 plak...ekceli last week, rase agak “lonely” jgala...mcm ne nak start crite ek..hmm since start kelas tu, sy ade r prasan yang between me n amin ade dingin skit...nak ckp yg kmi bergaduh takde jga...tp yg pasti, kmi masing2 rasa yg kmi saling tak dihiraukan antara 1 sama lain...mksud sy, amin rasa mcm sy dah tak brape hiraukan dia....meanwhile, sy plak rase yg die pun tak brape nak hiraukan sy...during lecture pun kmi jrg duduk sama....then, balik pun dorang amin dah tak join kmi jln kaki...time tu, sy still lgi la act cool...tp lama2 sy rasa mcm kmi mkin lama mkin jauh...aisey bile sy ckp mcm tu, jgn ler plak korang slah fhm...as korang pnya info, hbgan sy dgn amin mmg tak lebih dri teman tp mesra....terpulangla if korang nak cayer ke tak...but, that is the truth...


bile sy mksudkan hbgan kmi mkin jauh tu, dri segi keakraban kmi as friend...kan b4 cuti sem, kmi mmg kamceng giler2...during study week n exam week tu, kmi bleh dikatakan 24/7 tgk muka masing2...haha kirenye celik mata tgk muka dia...b4 tido pun tgk muka dia gak...


ekceli, sy start rasa “terabai” tu since kmi start cuti sem....mmg agak lost contact ler dgn dia....time tu sy rasa maybe dia nak menyendiri...haha dah muak kot communicated dgn sy....sy plak x brani nak msj dia...takut slh timing...so mmg kmi lnsung x de contact...time raya haji tu pun, dia tak wish balik...wish pun lepas beberapa hri...(as i expected...dia msti ade baca blog sy tu...sal tu lah suddenly send ucapan raya ntuk sy)


then, bile kmi sume dah balik ums, bru ler dia contact sy balik...yg dia ajak p 1B mkn tu...dah kan sy crita b4 this...nasib ler hri tu kmi outing dgn hepinya ^^


hmm brbalik pda situasi td...sy time tu btol2 rasa yg amin dah brubah...plus hri tu dia byk kali outing p 1B n just mention nak jmpa kwn...time tu dia mmg x crita lsgung la psal kwn dia tu...so sy time tu mmg penuh dgn tnda tnya....bile tnya ed c amin p mane...ed plak just jwb ader la tu p jmpa kwn...haizz time tu agak tersentap gak ler...sy bukannya ape...up to u guys la mo ckp sy ni busy body or wat...sy just concern bout him as a friend...coz b4 this dia tak penah pun mcm ni kan...


yg menerukkan lgi keadaan bila cuti 3 hri tu...sy kan tak balik rumah...chalen mmg wajib ler balik if ade cuti2 ni...sifu pun balik rumah jga...ekceli sy terkilan skit la coz sifu x inform awal yg dia nak balik kan...kmi tau sifu mo balik pun biler sy suh chalen msj sifu n tnya whether sifu mo mnta tapau mknan tak d cafe sktnm..sal time kmi p mkn tu sifu mcm busy brckp dgn rodtney...kmi ingat sifu akan mnyusul p cafe, so kmi 3 pun bantai ler jln dulu p cafe...but biler tnggu pnya tnggu byg sifu lngsung x nmpak...that’s why ler suh chalen msj sifu...time tu baruler tau yg sifu ekceli rushing mo balik...


time tu seriously btol2 trasa ooo....huhu nande sifu x msj emhong...balik je bilik mmg x brape ade mood la...coz trbyg yg 3 hri ni just tngal sy n yen je...tp trhibur ler kjap coz smpat gak tgk the ugly truth dgn chalen, smntara chalen tnggu kakak dia dtg jmput dia....after habis tgk movie tu, smpat gak ler heart to heart talk with chalen...mcm2 gak ler yg kmi crita...


yg sy ingat, kmi 2 ade sentuh sal pristiwa chalen gaduh dgn ct sebabkan kfc...critanya mcm ni....x ingat ler hri ape..rasenye mcm hri rabu lepas..petang tu after klass, ct join dorang mizah p 1B coz ct ade brg nak beli..so, kmi pun mnta ler krim beli kfc dgn ct...time tu chalen ler yg msj dgn ct...tp end up ct just beli satu je kfc coz ct misunderstood msj c chalen...hmm chalen at dat time mmg down giler coz dia rasa brsalah kat me n sifu...at the same time gak sy dpt rasa yg dia oso rasa brsalah kat ct coz dia ade trmarah ct masa g ambik kfc dgn ct tu...


ct ade r gak msj sy n say sorry coz dia tak terbelikan kmi kfc...sy dgn sifu plak ok je...kmi x de la nak salahkan ct mahupun chalen...hal dah terjadi kan...reda je la..time tu, sy pun sedey r gak bile tgk chalen n ct gaduh salt u...coz the day b4 that, dorang 2 bru jer berbaik kan...tup2 keesokannye plak hal ni trjadi...chalen mmg bad mood giler...sy plak sedaya upaya ler ckp kat dorang 2 yg kmi tak slahkan dorang...n really hrp dorang 2 leh berbaik smula...x nak la sebab kmi, dorang brgaduh plak...


x lama pastu, ct pun trun p bilik kmi smbil bwakan bread ntuk kmi...coz dia still rasa brsalah kat kmi...ct ni kan.....baik btol hahaha...erm then, ader aa ct p approach chalen n seems like dorang dah berbaik smula =) alhamdulilah....hopefully pasni jgn ler gaduh2 lgi ye...tp mmg susah ler nak gurantee psal hal ni kan...yg penting, kt mestilah pndai handle sesuatu masalah tu...


iklan kjap...


p/s: sifu....ekceli kan emhong btol2 tringin mo find some time n heart to heart talk with sifu...wo shi jiang zhen de...ekceli wo you hen duo hua yao geng ni shuo oo...ke shi dao xian zhai still dun have the chance...coz b4 this byk sgt hal yg trjadi...n yg pasti wo zhi dao wo hen duo chi de jui lek ni...hontoni gomenasai...so hope we can have the chance to talk...


k brbalik pda crita...after chalen balik rumah...tngal ler sy n yen je d bilik...hmm time tu aura lonely tu mmg dah trasa...tgh best2 borak dgn yen..suddenly dpt msj dri sifu...time tu sifu inform yg dia dh slamat smpai rumah...n oso ade gak say sorry coz tak inform awal...lgipun dia rushing coz rodtney kejar masa time tu...hehe ekceli after received msj from sifu, barula sy rasa senang hati skit...sy mmg mcm tu...wlpun cpt trsinggung, kadar ntuk smbuh tu pun cepat jga =)


aisey jauh jga mnyimpang ni...td bukan crita sal amin ke?? Hehe k back to story...td kan sy mention sal cuti 3 hri yg menerukkan lgi keadaan...since rumet2 sy balik rumah...sy mmg boring tahap gunung kinabalu laa...dah ler tak bleh on9...niat hati mmg ler nak siapkan nota mnggu tu...tp, leh krana lemah dgn hasutan syaitan, last2 sy byk buang masa tgk movie d laptop...pnah satu mlm tu sy habiskan 4 movie...hmm ekceli yg buat kan sy pelik bile amin lngsung xde kontek sy during 3 hri cuti tu...mmg pelik la...tp yg pasti sy yakin amin takkan stay jer d bilik...confirm dia dah ade plan smthing...


1day tu, coz boring yg tramat sgt, sy pun saje aa ajak ct outing hri ahad...ekceli sy just ajak2 ayam je coz sy x expect yg ct will stuju...biler ct ckp ok, sy pun excited gak ler...time tu ct ader la tnya napa tak ajak amin...time tu sy tol2 tak tau ape crita dgn c amin tu...so just ckp yg amin rasanya ade hal dia sndri...time tu sy takut sgt2 if kjadian 3oktober berulang...tp yg mslh nya...mcm mana nak kontek if sy sndri pun x kredit...lgipun dia oso lngsung x kontek sy...


End up hri tu terukir la sejarah sy outing berdua dgn ct....hehe 1st time outing dgn ct...fun jgala...at first sy rasa kekok gak coz tak tau nak mrayap kat ne bila smpai 1B nnti...masa kmi brjalan kaki p 1B tu pun sy dah start rasa kekok coz sy tak tau nak borak ape dgn ct...tp lama2 ok laa...mcm2 gak ler kmi borak dri crita sal maz p crita sal exam hri tu....haha mmg smgat giler laa sy critakan experience sy viva hri tu...viva paling disaster yg penah sy attend ~.~


Smpai2 je d 1B, kmi p survey2 movie dulu...aduiyaa skalinya kmi smpai awal sgt...gsc tu blom lgi buka...so trpksa ler kmi mrayau2 dulu...yg lawaknya kmi kejap2 turun p bwh then naik n then turun lagi...haha mana taknya...at first ckp nak mkn kat apple’s...then ct ckp dia tringin nak mkn kat food court so kmi pun naik ler p atas...smpai2 d food court, kmi ekceli dah duduk dah pun, tp bile tgk2 menu, ct plak tak berkenan..hehe so, kmi pun patah ler balik p apple’s...end up kmi pun mkn ler kat c2...hmm time tu lah kmi ade trsrmpak dgn dorang Fatimah...not to forget with dorang R...haha smpaikan 3x baa kmi trsrmpak...ainaaa mmg ada chemistry baa kmi haha...


Slesai mkn, kmi pun mrayau2 ler kdai2 skitar tu...n time tu lah sy tergerak mo kol c amin...tp yg kin panasnya tak dpt plak kol...ishh mmg panass gak laa time tu...tak lama pastu amin kol balik...aik ade plak kredit dia ni...amin tnya ler napa kol...dgn slmabernya sy jwb ler “saje je coz nak pastikan yg dia still hidop lgi ke”...ermm mcm kejam je ayat kan...ekceli sy geram coz dia ni mcm saje je mo elakkan diri dri sy...bile sy tnya dia katne...dia just jwb aderla somewhere...so, leh bygkan tak prasaan sy time tu?? B4 this kan sy ade mention yg sy ni jenis yg suka pendamkan prasaan...so biler die jwb mcm tu sy btol2 terkilan...dtmbah lgi dgn sgala tnda tnya sblom ni...mmg hmmmm ntah ler unexplainable feeling...


Nasib baik ler time tu sy dgn ct...so xde aa sgt sy pikirkan sal hal tu...continue p crita outing dulu b4 back to story....


After penat meneroka kdai2 yg kiut2...kmi 2 pun p ler servay tiket...ekceli ct ade mention yg dia nak sgt tgk new moon...sy plak dri awal mmg x interested nak tgk...bile2 survey pnya survey, tygan yg paling terdekat was crita santau kul 1.30....then new moon plak x silap dlm kul 2.3o or 3 lebih...since time tu baru kul 12 lebih so btol2 dlm dilemma gak ler coz mls nak tngu lama...sy tau ct mmg x into crita seram2...lgipun kesian gak ct coz dia kan tngal sorang...x pasal2 trauma plak anak org nnti hehe...ekceli sy ckp ler kat siti tak pyh ler kt tgk movie...kt just jln2 jer la...time tu sy mmg serius giler...tp ct really2 a nice person...sy dpt nmpak mcm dia x nak hmpakan sy, so dia pun ajak ler tgk santau tu...time tu sy btol2 trharu...huhu thanks aa ct...


Last2 kmi 2 pun stuju tgk santau tu...since ade lgi masa sejam...kmi 1st p surau dulu solat...aiseymen, bleh2 plak kmi trsrmpak dgn kak zirah d surau...aduiyaa kantoi...kak zirah kan jnis yg alim2...hehe msti dia x brpe suke bile kmi mntion kmi nak tgk wyg...ekceli if fikir balik...antara dak pompuan muslim dlm kelas...rasanya Cuma sy n ct je yg kaki tgk wayang...dak2 len kbykannya mmg x msuk pnggung... -_-


During tgk crita santau tu...hehe mmg geli hati gak ler tgk glagat ct...mcm2 ct mnyumpah time tgk crita tu...hahaha sama ler mcm kjdian kt tgk crita coming soon time bufday sifu hri tu hehe....ekceli kurang ler skit tahap keseraman bile tgk dgn ct hehe...tp yg kin panas bile ade part hantu kuar, ct msti tutup mata...haizz klau sy plak, sy slalu tutup tlinga coz sy x suka dgr sound effect dia...kuat giler!!


Hbis tgk wyg, wajib ler p mlawat giant...pastu kmi pun balik....yg sandinya kmi 2 jln kaki balik hahaha....that day i really have a gud time with ct....ct pun baik sesangat coz ikut je “rentak” sy...thank a lot ya!!


That’s the end story sal sy n ct...however this is not the penamat of the story...still have plenty to go T-Hee =_=


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Masuk mggu ke 2 (20/12/09-22/12/09)

Crita sal amin tak brhenti d situ je...masa me n ct otw nak balik ums...amin ade r kol n ajak sy p jogging petang tu...sy takut nak tolak coz nnti dia tarik muka dgn sy plak...lgipun sy nak gak tau ape ekceli yg terjadi, since these few days dia mcm byk menyepikan diri...ekceli sy x brape sure whether dia mention kul 5pm/5.30pm...sy dgr mcm 5pm...so balik je dri 1B sy lepak2 kjap hilangkan penat then p cuci bju kejap...bile sy hbis cuci bju, bru sy prasan yg amin ade kol sy...sy assume yg dia nak makesure sy dah balik bilik ke blom...x de aa expect bnda lain...sy siap msj ke dia n mention yg dun wory, sy psti pgi jogging pnya....time tu dah omost kul 5...then sy pun brsiap ler...ekceli dah pkai tudung pun...skalinya x lama pastu dia kol lgi skali...n mention yg x jdi jogging coz dia ade jnji dgn kwn nak p mkn....once again dia mention sal prkataan kwn tu...arggghhh to tell the truth....sy btol2 curious sapelah kwn dia tu...since dri hari tu asyik mention sal “kawan kawan kawan”...time tu really trasa gila2 laa dgn tindakan dia tu....


amin say sorry n dia ajak sy jog petang keesokan harinya...time tu sy tol2 dah tawar hati dah...sy just answer, tgk la dulu...hmm brabis gak ler sy ckp, x pe sy ok...tp ekceli i’m not ok at all...


keesokan harinya, dpt msj dri amin yg dia n ed x dpt p kelas coz x brape sihat...tp, tgk je dri ayat mmg tau pun dorang 2 bukan sakit pun...time tu sy just jwb acuh x acuh je msj dia tu...coz still hot maa...sy start rasa yg sy mcm dah tak brapa kenal dgn insan brnama amin ghazali ni...penah gak sy trpikir yg adekah sy hnya dicari bila time susah je?


Habis kelas, amin msj n ajak sy jogging petang tu...sy mmg mls giler nak p....amin dah prasan yg sy ekceli still marah sal smlm...so dia tol2 brabis ler ajak sy jogging gak...last2 sy stuju la jga...hmm klau ptg tu dia cancel lgi last minit...x tau ler sy nak ckp ape...


Ptg tu, sy dah elok2 pkai kasut sukan sgala, skalinya sy tgk amin dgn slamba je pkai sandal...sy pelik laa...aik td dia gak ckp nak jogging...ni aper citer ni??rupenye dia mmg plan xnak jogging..Hmm ampeh tol ooo...dia tkut if dia x ckp p jogging confirm sy x mo p jmpa dia...ainaaa....dia buat mcm ni lgila sy sakit hati...


Sy tau tujuan dia ajak sy “jogging” tu coz mau clear kan smthing...ekceli dia pun rase gak ler antara kmi mmg cam ade yg tak ngam...ade gak dia tnya napa time msj, sy mcm blas acuh x acuh je...plus dia ckp yg sy skang ni byk “against” dia...sy tak tau nak jwb mcm ne time tu...so sy just snyum je...coz byk sgt yg happen lately...really dunno where to start...somemore, b4 dia ajukan sy soalan tu, sy trlebih dahulu tnya dia ekceli dia g mane smlm? Tp dia x jwb soalan sy n trus tukar topic...so....since dri perenggan atas2 tu, leh tak korang bygkan tahap “ke’terkilan’an” sy tu....time tu sy rasa, dia mcm ade hiding smthing from me...


End up petang tu, pertemuan yg diharapkan dpt menjernihkan keadaan ekceli telah menambahkan lgi ke’curious’an sy trhdap amin...adehh mmg pelik laa suasana time tu...ekceli mlm tu kmi ade r jnji nk study sama...skalinye dewan tutup plak...last2 amin ckp xpe la, tnggu dewan buka bru study sama...


Time baca msj dia tu, sy mcm ada satu prasaan brsalah...coz sy tau ptg tu amin mmg niat baik nak ajak borak n maybe can redakan skit ketegangan antara kmi kan...tp due to byk sgt hal yg brlaku, otak sy mmg brserabut giler la...that’s why biler amin gurau2 dgn sy, sy tend to bls balik gurauan dia dlm bntuk yg agak mnyakitkan hati... sy tau, dia trasa tu dgn layanan sy...ade skali tu dia tnya whether sy still nk jdi PA dia lgi tak? Sy slamber jer la jwb NO...sy nak resign..ekceli sy gurau jer...reaksi amin time tu agak sugul n nmpak mcm dia take it serious...dunno why...sy time tu rasa mcm dia bukan amin yg sy kenal b4 this....


Sooooo, balik je bilik after “jogging” tu...sy pun msj ler amin n luahkan ape yg terbuku dlm hati sy...sy mention ler psal hbgan kmi yg agak dingin tu...nape dia mcm dah x brape hiraukan sy....then ader r gak sy mention yg ekceli sy x brniat pun nak sakitkan hati dia time td petang...huhu neves gak sy tnggu blsan dri dia coz sy takut dia trsnggung dgn ayat2 sy...at last amin bls n request yg dia nak jmpa sy kjap dpn blok...


Ekceli dat nite, sy oredi plan nak tgk new moon dgn sifu n edith...tp last2 dorang 2 je yg tgk...hehe hontou2 gomenasai...thankfully both of them not mad at me...sifu pun ade gak msj n tnya whether sy ade mslah ke...tp sy just reply dun worry...bile sy balik nnti sy crite kat sifu..n sy suh dorang tgk jer dulu new moon tu coz sy maybe lmbat skit balik...


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Everything is clear dat nite....

Pda mulanya neves gak la bila nak bersemuka dgn amin coz takut jdi mcm kes petang td....alhamdulillah sumenya run smoothly....


Time tu amin pun explain ler kat sy bout everything yg buat sy curious sgt2...paling penting psal “kawan” dia tu n mana dia mnghilang time cuti hri tu...


Ekceli amin mmg nak crite kat sy sal kwn2 dia tu, tp dia tak tau mcm mana nak jelaskan kat sy...for me plak, if dia keep on mcm berselindung smthing, lgila mudah bgi sy misunderstanding psal dia...


Rupe2nye amin ade join satu group skuad sabah...group ni slalu la buat konvo ronda2 sabah n buat aktiviti2 camping...so, time cuti hri tu, amin join group tu ronda2 p daerah beaufort,sipitang,keningau n tenom....


Then dia ade gak mention yg ekceli dia sama jer mcm dulu x brubah pun....maybe still lgi mood holiday kan...ekceli amin ade mention yg sy takut biler dia asyik dgn kwn2 dia tu, kmi tak de chance nak kuar same2 lgi...erm to tell the truth, amin ekceli mcm boleh baca ape yg ade dlm fikiran sy...cthnya dlm blog sy hri tu ada entry sal “me n them”...amin tau gmbar yg sy ckp tu ekceli gmbar psal dorang...n dia tau sy agak bimbang if the same thing might happen btwn kmi..


Some more, dia brabis gak fikir ekceli ape punca yg buatkan sy start act dingin dgn dia...kan kmi since start new sem mmg dah start dingin...n bile die mention psal sy start trasa coz dia tak respond msj hari raya sy tu...time tu trkejut gak la...aisey mcm mana dia bleh tau ni....senang sgt ke nak interpret sy???? Hmm tp mmg lawak laa...seems like dia mmg memahami sy...


Lama jgala kmi lepak tepi dewan tu....mcm2 gak la yg kmi borakkan...tp cam biasa tukang ckp sudah semestinya c amin...sy klau part brckp direct, mmg ade fail skit...sejujurnya, sy slesa gunakan blog ntuk luahkan ape yg sy rasa...coz i’m not so good in talking...


Biler amin hbis explain psal sgala misunderstanding tu, dia ade r tnya sy balik nape sy nmpak moody since start new sem tu? Sy jwb ler bcoz disebabkan sgala misunderstanding tu ler...erm mmg btol pun...if baca entry ni dri awal, mmg byk sgt persoalan yg bermain d fikiran sy ttg amin ghazali ni...sebab b4 this dia tak pernah nak selindungkan apa2 dri sy...so agak weird bila he seems like hiding smthing from me...so biler everything dah clarify, mmg sy rasa lega sgt2...


Oh ye, kat sni sy nak jelaskan sejelas-jelasnya....sy dgn amin mmg tak lebih dri teman tp mesra...kmi tak couple ok...somemore, korang jgn ler prcya sgt d status fb dia tu yg kononnya dia dah break dgn gf dia tu...ekceli dorang skang dah ok...


hmm sejujurnya part ni sy pun x brape nak phm dgn c amin ni...kejap2 dia ckp dia break...kejap2 berbaik...sometimes, sy pun keliru dgn status dia d fb...sy takut nak tnya coz tu kan hal peribadi dia...buat ape la cbuk2 nak tau kan...

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siang tdi (22/12/09)


masa jln nak p labcom dgn chalen, ngam2 ade Fatimah skali...yg lawaknya, dia approach sy n ckp yg sy skang ni kapel dgn amin ke...adehhh sy tau, even sy ckp yg kmi takde pape mmg dia takkan caya pnya...sy rasa omost sume classmate assume yg sy n amin kapel...lantak ler ape dorang nak pikir...yg penting sy hrp sgt korang as my friends trust us yg antara kmi mmg x lebih dri sorang kawan...sy tak kisah if org lain salah faham psal kmi...tp sy really hrpkan yg sifu n chalen fhm sal situasi kmi...coz kdg2 sy dpt rasa yg korang pun mcm ragu2 dgn prhubungan kmi kan...


b4 this, ekceli sy sndri pun agak konpius dgn hbgan kmi....tp skrang everyting is clear now....percayalah...sy mmg x kapel pun dgn amin....dia tu kan boss sy...hahaha somemore... sy tak mau eh kena santau dgn gf dia nnti akekekeke.....peace no war


p/s: entry ni sy buat smlm 22/12/09....btw hari ni (23/12/09) ade lgi bnda yg happen...but i’ll only talk bout it later...tenangkan fikiran dulu...peace~