yossh! 1st of all mianae..entry kali ni x spt yg dijanjikan..which
means i’ll postpone again entry psal SJP tu ^^ huhu bukannya
ape, ekceli masa x mengizinkan..somemore mata pun dah
ngantuk ni..dah ler sy blum study lgi..dri td dok on9 jek..haizz mati
lah sy x dpt jwab soalan dr Ohmar sok x_x
not much to say ekceli..juz nak menyampaikan sdikit pndgan ntuk
sape2 yg rase berkaitan lah yek..sy harap korang jgn ambik hati
sgt dgn ape yg sy cuba smpaikan..ambik yg jernih buang yg
keruh..
erm yesterday (28sept) wow~! we’re so lucky or wat? dat
morning byk giler mama bersalin... mmg busy siot lab room
tu..x ckup tgan nurses nak handle..dis means byk ler chances for
us ntuk conduct delivery..erm but sygnya i x grab the chances to
conduct..coz i think i need to observe more b4 i have courage to
conduct..dat time most of my gp members succesfully conducted
the delivery..except for me,firdaus n prema..but prema ady
conducted one b4 this..so if nak diikutkan , left me n firdaus dat
havent conduct any delivery yet..haaiizz wat a pressure!
keje sy kat lab room tu juz mundar-mandir n tolong ape yg
patut..omo..nurses kat situ mmg suke giler suh kmi2 yg xde keje
ni ntuk ambik2 brg..mcm kes sy..tgh sy khusyuk2 brdiri kat 1
korner observe kes juey hong..tb2 nurse sebut “nurul~tolong isi
air dlm bekas ni”..adoii smpat lgi sy blur kejap n tertnya2 “eh
nurse ni pngil aku ke?”..isk3 nurul2, dah nurse tu pndang ko,
mstilah dia sruh ko!
wuuu blur siot! air ape yg nurse ni nak? xkan ler air paip plak..sy
tnya my colleague but they oso dunno..last2 tnya nurse..haha
time tu lah teruk kene bomb dgn nurse..pedas siot kene sindir..
“hah?air pun x tau?ni lah kamu org ni..dah brape lama observe
pun still tak tau ape2..korang tau observe je tp x reti nak tnya2
soalan..”
last2 nurse tu yg pgi cri “air”..bila dah jmpa dia suh sy teliti btol2
nama yg tertera pda botol tu..ooooo benda alah ni ke plak..air yg
dimaksudkan tu “clorhexidine” (antiseptic)..fuh sy akan ingat
smpai mati tu..
slain kes air tu..ade lgi 1 kes..nurse suh ambik bnda putih yg gune
ntuk clamp baby punye umbilical cord..ntah ape dah nma bnda
tu..x ingat (hak3 coz bkan sy yg kene suh cri)..but still tolong cri
ler jga..ekceli msa nurse sebut bnda tu..kmi mmg x tau ape bnda
tu..so ape lgi..kene lah lgi bomb yg ke2..
adooii sabar je lah..but i can see seseorang mcm dah start
“moody” effect kene sound dgn nurse tu..hmm how to say
aa..for me no need lah trasa sgt dgn kata2 nurse tu..juz take it
easy laa..nurse bukan maki hamun pun..paling kejam pun
dorang juz menyindir je..but tu sume kan ntuk kebaikan kita
maa..its 1 of the learning process..so juz accept it dgn open
heart laa..no need moody2..coz u oso will affected the
surrounding u know..
hmm sorry la if my words seem to harsh or wat ever..ntah
lah..maybe setiap org pnya penerimaan tu berbeza kan..sy x tau
ler plak if sy ni sorang yg “takde perasaan”..but i feel that i can
easily accept the kritikan wif open heart..as long as kritikan tu
betul n bertujuan ntuk memperbaiki diri sy..ape gunenye dok
pendam perasaaan sedey or x puas hati tu lame2?? buat stress je..
klau dah stress tu..faham2 je lah…xde mood nak interact dgn
org..klau org tnya soalan, msti dibalas dgn 1 expression yg hmm
camne nak describe aa..ala its like “isk bleh x jgn kcau sy skang? x
nmpak ke sy tgh hot?”..klau org tu mmg dah lama kenal kita, its
oklah..at least dorang faham..oh si dia ni tgh stress..baa jgn lah
kacau dia..if org yg x brapa rapat plak, wat do u think?? mstilah
org tu akan trasa kan dgn tindakan tu..
i know u realized bout this problem rite n have initiatif to
overcome it..but hmm i ekceli cant see the progression..i guess
it takes time..
hmm for my other friend..hey..i think u have improved a lot..org
yg sy mksudkan di sini is someone yg really easy
to feel irritated..haha i hope u know who you are..
previously..u really easy to get irritated for small2
things..sometimes ur actions seems quite harsh and “kejam”..esp
if in a situation when u forgot to bring something..u know wat..u
makes us “takut” wif u ^^ but the good thing is..the rate of
recovery oso so fast one..u know u ady buat org tersinggung n at
the end u apologized.. it wont take days..its only take few hours
only..
now…u really seems improved…eg like the case we “escape”
the clinic dat day…u ada mention yg its ur fault coz forgot dat dr
will come to clinic for pemantauan..when u started to mention
bout the thing..in my mind, i ady prepared my physical n mental
to accept dat u gonna “explode” in any time..but thankfully~ u
didnt explode..omo~ its hard to believe..u juz acted calm.. till
now, u havent show any sign of previous “illness”..i hope it
will last for a long period..
i think dats all i want to say for now…we’re friends rite..so
tujuan sy mention psal sume tu bukanler nak buat korang
tersinggung ke ape..as friend i juz tegur mane2 yg patut..up to u
guys laa nak trima mcm mana..i oso not perfect baa..byk yg
kurang sana sini..so if u guys have any teguran..juz tell
me..insya”allah i’ll accept it wif a open heart n try ntuk
memperbaiki diri..kat dunia ni, kite bukannya duk sorang2..we’re
living in a society..so fkir2 lah jga kat org sekeliling..peace x war..
oh ye sblom i end this entry..i have something to ask..i wonder
why most of the MALAY h/0 esp m/o sooooooo berlagak one??
eeee tolongla..muka lgsung tak mesra alam..mcm nak makan org
je..plizlah, specialist pun x berlagak like dorang tu…haizz dorang
dulu x penah ke jdi med student like us?sepatutnya dorang faham
ler keadaan kite kan..
i hope if i managed to finish my study n graduated as a dr..i wont
be so cocky..i want bcome a dr like Mr Jerry..he is my
ispiration..i admire him so much! for PEOPLE dat HARDLY to see
mr jerry’s pnye kelebihan…better go drink clorox laa..haha gurau
only..dun get angry…hmm i ekceli dunno how to convince
u..wat i can say is..mr jerry got an “X-factor” in which when we
1st time saw him,we’ll say “wow!!” n we have some kind of
inspiration to become like him..for me, i started to admire him
during 1st bst wif him..omo~ terpegun tgk cara mr jerry clerk
pt!!
oklah dats all guys..hehe dis time btol2 end sdah ni..see u guys next time!!
nasihat ntuk diri sndri: ingat nurul…bnyakkan se~nyum~
coz if u dun smile, ur expression owez looks “stress” hahaha…
p/s: 2nite onkol..hope i have chance to conduct delivery..Ya Allah
bagilah aku kekuatan!
Jgn stress2 ye abang & kakak sekalian…
kmi menantikan kehadiran korang
ntuk “menyambut” kami ^___^
Ganbatte ne!!
-The End-
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