Hi guys..tanpa memnjgkan crita meh sy critekan psal life sy kat sandakan ni ye..hoho i guess crite ni mmg dah bangas tahap dewa dah..i dun think u guys have interest to read bout it..but who’s care...layaan je lah!
3 months ago…
1st impression of Sandakan…
hmm of coz ler sedey n berat hati nak meninggalkan rumah…but dats ekceli not the main point..lgipun sy dah biasa brjauhan dgn family..hoho mane taknya…diri inikan dah tak brape “diterima” sgt biler kat rumah tu..hak3 tulah sape suh brlagak mcm “princes” sgt..pemalas tahap babas btol..
so as korang expected, sy berat hati nak mngalkan ums & 1borneo…baa,1B tu kan dh mcm my 3rd home (2nd home~ums)..klau 2nd year omost evry week muke sy dok mnyemak kat 1B tu..huhu nnti biler dah stay sandakan x dpt ler nak lepak kat 1B..no more kbox..no more movie..no more boling..no more soping..no more McD..no more apple’s..no more big’s apple..arrghhhh no more everything dat can b consider as FUN T.T
reader: haizz u tot sandakan tu hutan ke cik nurul ooii!!??
1st day in sandakan..
fuuhh perjalanan pun dah ambik masa 6hours++ penat siott!!wlpun bukan sy yg drive kan..but oso penat maa..nek lenguh badan duk dlm bus lama2..haizz high risk to get Deep Vein Thrombosis (DVT) u know >.< well dlm bus most of the time i sleep! haha hbis tu nak watpe lgi..org len pun busy wat taik mate! but smpai je ranau..tak “slere” nak tido coz jalan yg berliku-liku…wuuu pening giler..nasib ler x termuntah..i think ader lah terjaga dlm sejam b4 terlelap balik haha..mase kat ranau tu sifu pnyalah bertuah coz dpt jmpa dgn mum n adik2 dia..hehe tp awal2 tu sifu brlagak “cool” skit..mcm nak tak nak je turun g jmpa mum dia ^^
~STRESS MENGHIMPIT JIWA~
1. arrived at bandar Maju around 4pm..
penat siott!! mulenye ingat we’ll stay there..rupenye juz p reg rumah je..adooi awat lah office SPU ni “isolate” btol..byk2 tmpat, lot kedai yg blakang2 jga jdi pilihan…somemore xde rupe opis pun..ermm i guess still in construction guaaa!?
2. our dream house is juz a dream T.T
its really heartbroken coz our dream house hanya tngal harapan…ntah makhluk tuhan manelah yg pndai2 ckp kmi bleh tentukan housemates sndri..skang tgk ler ape jdi? i think chalen n sifu yg paling sedey bler dpt tau yg we have to apart..coz dorang trpksa 1 rumah dgn bdak chinese which 4sure x ngam dgn dorang..sy plak ditakdirkan serumah dgn dorang dila…huhu sedey la jga coz sy x biasa dgn dorang..but lega skit coz dpt tau yg tiah oso my housemate…
haha but yg kin panasnye bdak malay yg len awal2 dah buat “komplot”..they exchange dis person wif dat person so dat they can be wif their pals..me n my gangs plak “too slow”..i oso dunno wat happen to us..sume jdi blur n stress..last2 kmi2 jga yg jdi “org prtukaran”…yg sy pelik nape dorang x ikut je plan asal..wat i mean is, sume pun dah plih housemates masing2 kan..so instead of tukar 1-2 persons why not rombak sume skali??kan senang..sume puas hati..but they said we cant do dat coz tkut phak pngurusan mrah..haizz
end up, i stay wif ros..sifu stay wif ct whereas edith stay wif chalen..ekceli 5 of them have chance to stay 2gether..but last2 x jadi coz miss R tlah potong jalan…since no enuf space, ros x jdi msuk n decide stay wif me..then we tot sifu joining them..rupenye tak jdi coz sifu dun want serumet dgn bdak chinese..dats why end up sifu stay wif siti..
3. master room???
since kmi (me n ros) lambat pok bilik..we have to stay in master room..cehh sounds so ssuaangg kan..klau tgal ber2 mmg lah suaang..ni kene tgal ber4..adooii sempit siot! xde privacy! then we found out dat our room dun have enuf meje study ,tilam n almari..wth!? nasib ler dorang ed ade extra tilam..klau nak tgu phak pngurusan hntar..alamat tido atas lantai ler slama smggu..meja study plak ekceli ade tp blum dipasang..end up kmi yg psang sndri..haha time tu lah bru sy tau yg ros ni ekceli berbakat dlm hal2 bertukang ni ^^ slain meja study, rak buku n ampai kain pun kmi yg psg sndri..klau kat rumah,xde maknenye sy nak brtukang2
p/s: bru bbrapa hri kat sandakan..i oredi learnt a lot..esp bab2 bertukang hahaha..
4. i really dun understand ~.~
dat nite we kuar mkn 2gether..siti oso joining (haizz wajib ler..tukang penunjuk jalan baa)…since kmi still x familiar wif bandar sandakan ni..we decide mkn kat bndar maju je..area office SPU..we ate at habeeb..well we eat n chat..most of it we talked bout our holiday..if u guys prasan..ada 2 org makhluk tuhan ni seems not so bertegur sgt..wat happen leeh!?
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--Luahan perasaan--
ekceli kmi start x berngam 1 day before bertolak p sandakan…how to say aa? ekceli i can feel that he seems like mengelakkan dri from me..since then, sy rsa akward nak berdepan dgn dia…kdg2 tu sakitlah jga hati bila tgk dia elok je interact dgn org lain..but buat endah x endah je kat sy..
if u want to know,byk kali sy mkan hati dgn klakuan kmu before we start x bertegur sapa omost sebulan lebih tu..
a) msa 1st day mkan kat habeeb…u only interact wif certain people..then talked bout something that we’re not so familiar (but now i oredi get it)
b) 1st time mkn kat sim2…if i not mistaken, the idea mkn kat situ dtgnya dri ros rite? but then, why at the end we’re left “abandoned”? u not even sit wif us n join us eat? is it bcoz we ordered food from dfrnt stall so we cant sit together?
c) i’m the last person to know bout the “thing”? ekceli to tell da truth, i oredi can figure bout it long time ago..cuma mlm tu, sifu n ros help me to confirm bout it..haha lawak plak sy tgk glagat dorang ni..mcm nak mnyampaikan brita yg sgt buruk je..they tot i’ll cried after knew bout it..end up my respond.."blur"..i ekceli dunno how to react..shud i cry? if yes..wats the reason?shud i be happy? then why shud i? coz the reason is..kmu tak smpaikan sndri bout the things to me..sejujurnya, after heard bout it..i juz feel terkilan..coz all of them already knew bout it..since then, bru sy fham why u acting so akward around me..
d) the next day..kmu ajak mkn kat res Keniaogan…dlm dilema gak antra nak pgi ke tak..at last pgilah jga..tp kmi x jdi p mkn kat rest. tu coz xde parking..last2 mkn kat habeeb je..but yg kin spoilnya..why u seems soooooo hot?i really dun get it..sy lgsung x brani nak pndang muka kmu..ed pun diam je..haizz wat a awkward atmosphere…
then..few days later..u text me wif hmm a really “nice” words…u asking me wats wrong wif me?why people “attack” u n said u’re a bad guy?erm since u used “nice” words..sy pun x mo kalah lah jga..haha dats is the first time both of us “gaduh besar”..i bet both of us really sakit hati n sgt hot time tu..ayat masing2 mmg kick la..kalah ayat drama hak3..
sy juz nak tekankan kat sni 1 more time..kmi tak pernah mention yg kmu prlu mnta persetujuan if kmu nak kapel..when i raise bout the issue why u didnt inform me earlier, kmu plak mention yg why shud u inform me?perlu ke nak heboh2 psal tu??
the answer is..of coz ler PERLU! sblum ni sume hal pun kmu crita kat sy..then nape hal tu kmu x critekan kat sy?(haizz nmpak mcm busy body ler plak) but for me, u really shud inform me leeh..
since dat nite…both of us lgsung tak bertegur sapa..kmi masing2 bertekad xnak ambik tau psal hal masing2..kire mcm lantak kau lah nak buat ape..ade aku kisah!? haaizz slama sebulan kmi x bertegur..i bet others oso prasan dgn kelakuan kmi..mane taknya..sy klau nmpak je klibat dia..will try my best to avoid him as far as i can..i bet he oso did the same haha..lucky enuf both of us not in the same group ^^
hmm can say that for the whole SJ posting, hbungan kmi mmg dingin tahap babas…masing2 menyampah tgk muke masing2..x tau ler mana hilangnya nilai2 persahabatan antra kmi dulu..ekceli i dun get it..asal sy gduh dgn dia msti takes long time ntuk bebaik compare if dia brgaduh wif my other friends..why leeh?then sy paling tak ske tgk air muka dia time kmi tak berngam..eee expression muke dia ni btol2 menampakkan yg dia menyampah dgn sy….haizz (-_-!!)…sy plak x sure if my expression oso ada mnjukkan “kemenyampahan” towards him or not..but for sure if sy trnmpak kelibat dia..sy akan mngalihkan pdgan sy trhadap dia secepat mngkin..
my friends ada yg tnya ekceli sape yg mengelak dri sape ni..sy mengelak dri dia atau dia mngelak dri sy??jwpan yg sy bleh berikan..kmi 2-2 mengelak antra 1 sama lain..spjg tempoh perang dingin tu, kmi mmg x brcakap sepatah pun..dia pun dah ada “geng” sndri..well sy plak dgn “geng” sy..hmm i bet if both of us xde geng masing2..msti kejap je gduh tu kan..manada org yg bleh hdup tnpa kawan disisi..
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--aaikk dah berbaik??--
malam 30august, angin takda ribut takda tb2 dpat text dri dia..nak trcabut jantung bila nmpak nma dia tertera d skrin hp..msj dia ringkas je..he ask me to go down coz he want to return me something..yg geramnya he text me around 8.55pm n ask me to go down in 5 minutes??sy tertanya-tnya brg ape plak yg dia nak return? tnpa byk soal, i juz replied “k”..
spt yg diarahkan..sy trun bwah blok kul 9..tp x nmpak pun klibat dia..then x lama dia pun muncul..aik tgan kosong,tak bwa apa2 pun..then he walks towards me n suddenly ask me to say sorry??? aaikk ape kes plak!? dia yg ajak jmpa but then why must sy yg say sory dulu? dis is unfair! at first hesitate jga..but bila fkir2..nak gaduh smpai bila lgi kan..so sy pun say sorry kat dia..then he oso say sorry..but ekceli not sorry to me..he sorry to himself..haizz wat the…so sejak tu kmi 2 pun berbaik..
p/s: i wonder wat will happen if i decide xnak turun see him dat nite?
recently he told me about something..i dunno whether it is true or not..forgot to ask details from him..coz last time he told me during wrong timing…later i’ll try ask him again..u better tell me the truth aa..if not.."ni gei wo si ding”!!
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till at this point..i still feel that men are really hard to be understand…when u feel like u need me u treat me nicely..when u feel like u dun need me u treat me coldly..men’s words are nice to hear…but do they really meant it?
a guy treat a girl too nice till at some point the girl have some kind of feeling towards the guy..but the guy ekceli dun have any feeling towards the girl..so sape yg patut dipersalahkan?
is it the guy?? but..he only do wat he think is right..is it wrong to treat people nice??
then is it the girl?? haizz..wait a minute..is it a sin to like someone??
so..apelah kesimpulannya???
i oso dunno…
p/s: erm till here dulu my entry..later i will proceed entry bout Surgery Junior Posting n other stuffs..anything interesting ke??dunno yet..just wait lah >.<
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