hmm da lame sy tak update blog...
few weeks ni really rase malas nak update sebab byk sgt perkara berlaku...
n i just dunno where should i start...
maybe i should start with my worst friday ever which on 31st july 2009...
31st july, just a day before friendship day... i actually had some kind of conflict with amin..
ekceli this conflict started a day before, which was on thursday night..huhu its happen becoz of my stupid mesej i think haha...
erm time tu rumors bout me n amin bleh dikatakan hangat jgala...hak3 rasa mcm artis le plak...at first kmi just biarkan je...yelah balik2 deny pun org still nda percaya kan...so kmi pun biar je la...tp mase khmis mlm tu, byk sgt benda yg kin panas berlaku...yg btol2 menstress kan kpala la...i think on that day everyone were not in their mood including me n amin..
mlm tu sy ajak edith n sifu mkn sama...then sy msj amin n ajak die skali...coz in my mind its will be fine if i invite him along lgipun ade edith skali...coz i know if me, sifu n amin mkn sama mesti akan rsa janggal...lgpun mase tu hbgan sy n sifu ade dingin skit...tp malangnya edith plak x jd p mkn sebab die mls...huhu sy sepatutnya da dpt expect bnda ni...ekceli sy da warn edith awal2 mase die nak balik bilik tu....tp pe leh buat kan bnda da jadi...i admit, i'm bit mad with edith time tu...(time tu je mrh edith, skang tak lgi ok hehe)
after gagal pjuk edith trun, me n sifu pun trus la p cafe...kmi first p photocopy pbl dulu...tak lame kmdian amin pun muncul...tgk dr riak muke pun tau mcm die pun not in d mood...
me n amin mkn order...sifu plak tak mkn sebab die da tapau mknan awal...ekceli sy da msj sifu awal ajak die mkn trus after klass, tp sifu x prasan msj tu...so die da tapau mknan dgn ros...mase sifu balik tu, i'm bit kecewa la bile nmpak sifu da tapau mknan...huhu mesti sifu x bace msj sy td...n mmg btol la sngkaan sy....so ntuk x mengecewakan sy, sifu jnji nk teman me n edith mkn kul 7 nnti...
berbalik pda story td, sifu just mkn ice cream je...huhu i really hate the atmosphere at that time..hopefully i'll not experience that kind of atm anymore...mase tngu order tu, kmi 3 byk diamkan diri je...feels really2 suck...i try to create conversation but fail..sepatah sy tnya sepatah jga yg djawab...
that day really suck...sifu having problem with her family n in dilemma whether she should go back that weekend or not...me plak stress coz of the laptop...amin having conflict with his rumet fifi...so bile 3 org yg tgh stress mkn bersama mmg la suasana mkn tu btol2 dingin n *&^%$ huh just cant find any word to describe it...dtambah lg dgn usikan dri sifu....mmg hot la mse tu...
abis je mkn, kmi trus balik bilik...i know amin really stress that time coz die tak pndang pun kmi mase tu...die staright away melangkah pulang...that time i really2 feels tense n guilty to sifu n amin...semua slh sy n sy tak patut ajak dorang trun mkn that time...but things oredi happen...
smpai je bilik, sy trus p baring d katil n btol2 takde mood nak buat bnde lain...then sy msj amin n apologize to him...but he said that's not my fault n he was not stress about the usikan instead it was about his problem with his rumet...however,he oso mentioned he want to talk to others n want to clear all the rumors bout me n him...so i replied n said maybe our tindak tanduk btol2 da melebihi batas seorang kwn..i mean kmi punya perlakuan da buat org slh sngka yg kmi ni kapel...so sy ckp kat die, pasni jgn la lyn sy baik sgt...bcoz it's really obvius yg lynan die terhdp sy mmg agak spesel la...
hmmm tgu punya tngu, he didnt reply my msj....mase tu i didnt realize any bad thing n just thought that maybe his run out of credit...
but......keesokan harinya (friday)
pagi tu we're having csl...amin sepatutnya mc hri tu coz die ade appointment dgn doc on afternoon...but he did showed up at the csl...n guess what, he dont even look at me n sit far away from me n chalen...n at that time i just realize that he maybe trasa with what i said in the msj yesterday or mybe he really2 want to mengelak from me huhu...
csl yg sepatutnya start jam 8 ditunda p jam 10.30....so kmi plan p mkn d library, amin oso following us but sepanjang perjalanan both of us didnt speak even one word...i guess dorang chalen n ct mesti da prasan something but they just diamkan je..
mase mkn, ct ade mention sal chalen x penah pngil ct sebagai "ct", then our conversation berleret n mengimbau kmbali kngan first2 kmi jd rumet dulu...kmi 3 mmg rncak la brcrite, but amin byk diam je n really not interested in that conversation...i really2 feel uncomfortable n sad coz amin really2 brubah...klau dulu, die la yg plg rncak mengusik dorang chalen, tp that time he act really serious...
after hbis briefing csl, n b4 we went to practice, i send a msj to amin n ckp yg tak best la klau kmi trus mcm ni...rasa jnggal...i oso apologize to him if he trasa with my words smlm...
huuu....then he reply me, "no need 2 sorry, he dun want 2 trigger any rumors bout us, he oso mention that dun blame him if he looks like jauhkan dri from me bcoz that's what i want"
honestly, i feel really2 sad n depress after receive his msj n i'm bit terkilan when die ckp mcm tu...mase tu sy btol2 mnyesal coz ckp psl tu dlm msj smlm....i feel like i'm gonna loss him as my close friend...
however.....i manage to solve the problem with one msj haha...n that's will be a secret between me n him hik3...(aisey dri klimaks trus menjunam p peleraian...haha sory la sal i can't talk more bout how i manage to settle our conflicts)
wlpun da berbaik, tp sy prasan yg lyana die trhdp sy mmg ade brubah skit la...tp takpe yg penting we're still a gud friend n i'm really bersyukur to have a friend like him ^^
hmmm wlpun kmi da berbaik, tp hri2 strusnya still ade jga kes2 merajuk ni...hahaha but taklah seteruk mcm kes td...n i really2 hope that prkara tu x kn brlaku lg -_-
p/s: erm what i realize, wlau seteruk mane pun sesuatu condition tu, if we be strong n think rationally, we definetly can overcome any problems n kesulitan...just dun let our emosion control our mind (n-n) "setiap masalah pasti ade jalan penyelesaian, just depends on how we handle the problem"
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